clock is ticking.. life is living as it is.. no one stops to really enjoy the moment of it den.. till someone thinks back to realise how nice is it to jus go back to that one moment when u are actually enjoying life if, and i mean IF we all jus dun complain tt much.. tts life..

hmm.. work's picking up and on track.. been handling more projects now.. im expected to hit more then 200 txns daily.. though difficult.. but i'll try..
i've so much to write.. too much too write.. but i'll try..
things are going fine wif mi and deary.. though i 'll still miss him hard during times when i jus wan to see him rite away.. but i'll try to stay fine.. i'll try..

to all my close frens... its hard to keep in close contact daily.. as we all hav our own lives to lead.. its reality.. but i'll try to keep up wif meeting my princesses.. i'll try..

yiling ger.. dunno wats happened to u since ur last msg.. u've been keepin mi in suspense till now.. try to meet up okies.. take good care..

jw.. hope u're doin fine wif sch work.. and david ya.. i wish u well and to take good care..

jie.. u jus know my pattern.. thank you for droppin mi a call once in a awhile.. we'll try to make time k.. i still owe a treat..

and sis.. my dearest sis... still no reply frm u since the last mail.. try to reply when u free okies.. even so, hope to hav dinner one day or sumthin.. its really been real long since i last really heard frm u le.. jiayou in life.. and take care of ur health okies.. its hard to work and study.. both at the same time.. hav a good day tml.. and many many days after many many tmls.
i miss u ger..

baby.. thank you for giving mi a good time.. all these while.. u're only gettin more sweeter, patient.. caring.. and loving.. thank you for assuring mi this way to make mi feel that all things are still the same as before.. thank you for allowing mi to see a little more further into our future.. its hard but we'll go throught watever comes our way okies..
i love you.. my one and only..

adeline is tired.. really mentally physically exhausted.. of daily routine.. of life.. but its wat frens and memories and loved ones that keeps her going..

adeline wans to take a rest.. away on a long journey to nowhere..

its been a long long time since i last wrote an entry and even got so guilty to hav my dearest sista readin up to find out more bout mi from my frens.. !! im so bad... coz i din really expect ppl to be actually reading much on my blog.. coz i dun hav much readers.. haa.. no matter wat here's an entry.. for sista..

been bz wif work.. finally got the hang of my job scope.. and was recently converted to a permanent staff.. but it aint a good thing to my though it might be for some others.. coz it only proves that im able to be loft on my own and expected not to make so much mistakes.. but i still ask silly qns most of the time! haa. and do silly mistakes and depend on others if my queue of transactions are too much to handle!! jus praying that all goes fine ba..

in the mean time i made new frens.. good frens.. who stay wif u and keep u company and tell u things whether u like it or not.. not hiding things.. tts wat i call frens.. since the very first day.. i got acquainted wif this ger.. Alicia.. a small size ger.. we share the same height and weight.. hav a bro and jus loves sleeping late into the afternoons.. haa.. she's a fun loving carefree and blur littler ger.. haa..

not long after i was introduced by alicia to this fine and cute ger.. who was also another long story as to why we are actually already indirectly frens of each other.. jesslyn.. haa.. i got her name correctly this time.. too many frens wif the same name yet different spelling.. :) we hit it off real well once we meet and i immediately feel as if we are old frens whu once lost contact.. shant spill out the way our frens are all interconnected.. haa..

den its shannon.. this ger whu seem rather quite and less sharing at first.. but she seem to be rather very much the opposite of wat we tot of her.. haa.. nice ger to chat with and joke.. it would be very different if without her ard definitely..

den its only recently i got to get closer wif this fren whu started working four months earlier den all of us.. she's yueping.. also from NYP.. hee.. realyl nice sharing stories and go catching movies together wif her..

its fri le.. in a blink of an eye i would be going back to work soon again.. went for a haircut on monday.. kinda miss twirling my hair now though.. but most imporatntly i had the approval of dear. hee.. tts the most important thing of all le.. baby said its nice.. thought to mi i feel i look more like a small ger le..

attended baby's pop on tuesday.. had a long and tiring day for all i know.. its tiring having to look out for dear as im the one taking most of the pics and vids.. i can say im proud of dear.. seeing dear on the parade square is totally a different feeling as of being together wif him.. baby got platoon best.. and company second best.. but i dun care as he is my best.. though i was out all day for dear.. but we had barely spoke to each other tt day.. went home tired and moody and sad.. shall not let it out here..

met up wif jingwen ger on wedenesday to help celebrate her birthday earlier.. we went to swissotel.. and its only after she told mi the hotel den i got to know of the hotal name.. how stewpit can i get.. met dear after our hi tea session.. and was still sharing wif jw ger bout how much difference i felt from dear from long ago and now.. its really pleasant..
some how or rather.. we seem to hav reach a level of understanding even without the need of talking or mentioning in details wat we hav in mind.. its great.. but not all the time.. if not we will hav to leave things unsettled and unsaid.. haa..

after being together for so long.. its only my first time going to wash bike wif dear yesterday.. after acc baby for his bike inspection..
its a long slacking day for mi today.. coz i finnaly am able to slack at home.. and watch tv till i got headache.. hahha.. anyway its time for mi to save and stop.. as dear is at my place le!!

will be back soon again..

it definitely isnt a gd day..
rite from the very beginning..
got off the wrong side of bed..
got a bad hair day and was late for work..

get home in time to throw a temper at my family..
its my bad.. i know..
im lost and stressed..
work's not going anywhere good..
and im not gainin much liking anywhere either..
i keep forgetting things..
and it sucks..
like fuck..

i dun like to hav myself in ppl's mouth or in ppl's stares..
i dun like to involve others if i jus cant finish my own work..
but eventually i got others involved by making a whole team return home late today..
as late as ten..
i made a few mistakes last week and ppl are clearing the shits for mi today..
and i dun like it.. !

im in a foul mood and i dun wish to talk to anyone or do anything..
i dun wan to go to work i dun wan to go anywhere..
i dn wan to see mommy and daddy..
mommy's mad and daddy breaks his promise..

if only..
if only i could..
i wish i would..
i miss you dear.. dearly..
take care there.. and i hope u're not having sucha bad time like wats it over here..

be home soon..


sis.. thank you.. (u might not know for wat.. but thanx..)
jie.. thanx for meeting on sat.. still got ur pearl.?
yiling ger.. thanx for having mi over at ur place.. rem its my honour to help u.. cya soon..
jw ger.. thankiew so so much for the pleasant meeting last min.. its really sweet.. a meeting once inawhile.. our promise okie?


baby. let mi see u in dreamland tonite??

its a bright and sunny day..
yet its jus a dark rainy and cloudy day for mi..

its still fresh in my head, the dream i made..
i dreamt of baby and we were having a good time indeed..
apparently things went bad but we din fall out..
its jus coz someone else stepped into the picture.. and i gave way..
its ok to be stewpit in my dreams.. but i wun know how would it be in real life..

its been my two weeks working at citibank already..
and im beginning to adapt and settle in pretty well..
started to handle transactions yesterday and today.. things are still fine so far..
as i've yet to experience difficult case..
i made my fist call to the treasury and dealers over at taiwan to quote rates for clients..
geez.. its scary.. their chinese! omg..

speaking of which.. im mentally prepared of wats ahead of my rite now.. its jus work and work and work.. i hope to try and find some time for myself and organise my thoughts for coming weeks..

baby baby.. pls be alright and sleep well at nite..
jus wanna assure u i only hav u..
do not worry and be fine okies baby..
lets promise each other to work hard together ok..
promised..
besides im beginning to adapt and accept this kinda life..
work on weekdays and love on weekends..
but tt leaves mi wif no time for my frens and my own.. haa..
watever..
im considered lucky to hav things to do in life.. and things to look forward to..
finally i jus wanna say i love u my dearest..
take care..

my first dae...

its been long and before i know it.. its been two days baby booked in le.. this time round with much hesitation and reluntance.. baby's tired.. too drained i guess.. aint booking out suppose to be a time to hav ample rest and replenish for the next weeks' training schedule? and den my baby always asking wat are the plans to go out.. haiz.. poor baby.. we'll balance our outing in time to come okies.. but meanwhile i need u to get enuff rest..

went back to sch to get acadamic transcript and diploma for dear.. and its a different feeling once i step into the sch though.. miss my schling days..

anyway... today today.. is my first day at work.. hurray!! haa.. but it wasnt really good la.. i practically sit around and do nothing staring at wat others are doing.. jus like a boss.. haa.. since they haven got mi a password and login for a computer.. so im basically bored.. yea.. but judging by the loads of transactions coming in from time to time.. and the speed of those processors.. i dunno how long am i gonna take to reach their standards.. im all ready to learn.. pls dun keep mi waiting too long.. haa..

first days at work are never nice.. im glad mine is over.. but i still got to get over the first week.. den is considered well settled ba.. we'll see.. till then.. take care frens.. and baby.. i miss you.. dearly..

my baby is back.. thank god i finally see my baby safe and all is fine today.. other den the wobbly legs almost giving way, jus worried for his sore throat. still cant seem to forget the first look of you at my doorstep. like finally.. my baby look so smart and cute.. haa botak baby..

baby took a ride from a fren's and came over to my place straight... lucky i din left home early to wait for him at pasir ris.. haa.. den we took a cab to his place.. spent the rest of the day admiring the finest of his little spiky hair.. haa.. i jus love moving my hands from the back of his head to the front..

ah guan came over.. david came too.. later evening serene and danny came over too.. haa.. sis was so sweet.. took vids for mi as she felt that was the least she could do since i wasnt allowed to take vids of baby.. haa.. sis kept saying ' ur baby very cute la.. haa.. was admiring him jus now.. haa.. anwiae im glad he is fine.. though very shack... =D proud of him... but super happie for you.. coz i know u wait this time very long le!!!'

i felt good.. coz sis totally spoke from my heart.. jus like the words i was about to say.. haa.. im proud of baby too!! more hectic days to come baby.. shall put up pics soon.. if i really got the mood.. haa..

gonna rest early le.. baby slping now!! haa.. nite all..

wth.. wat the hell! there u go wif ur mood swings again..ok fine. im fine wif it.. my fault again.. its not the first time either.. i said 'watever' coz one word describes it all..

i dun even know wat happen and was jus trying to know wat went wrong.. wat did i do or wat did i even say.. coz i realise as we were talking.. ur response ur attitude changed.. all the one word answer when i ask u questions..fine.. arent u rude? u could hav jus said' jie im not in a good mood.. please stop talking..' or ' im pissed wif u for watever reasons. so jus leave mi alone' i will! damn it.. i still got the heart to ask u wat happened my dear boy.. and this is wat i get.. fine again.. and one more things..please shut ur fucking mouth on the ah lian here and there.. i know wat i am and wat im not.. and im not trying to contradict myself wif the 'shut ur fucking mouth' .. i meant to say, please STOP all ur nonsense shit of ah lian here and there.. we've been communicating wif these all the time.. den explain to mi why the sudden change and names for mi?!?! if im an ah lian.. den does that makes u an ah beng? if u're tryin to change mi and stop mi from swearing all the time and helpin mi instead. u can do it in another manner.. and not by calling names. esp ah lian.. wth.. and after everything.. u go about saying sorry.. oh gawd.. tell mi wat am i suppose to do.. to learn from mistakes when i dun see any? to jus shut up and let u on ur way? im sorry too anyway.. if theres's anywhere im at fault.. i've always wanted u to see my point of view.. tts all..

it all started when i asked if u're free this fri. i could hav settle well at the 'see how things go'.. but u hav to leave the house jus coz u cant stand mi and need a fresh air outside? or wat? i ask if u're hungry and u said 'i dunno' nice said. wel done. ok fine. yea. u can change ur mind on sleeping early or not.. to go hav prata and watch soccer or not. and jus dun give a shit about ur promise to ur jie.. ok fine! really.. do watever pleases u.. (on a nice tone, jus in case u say i wanna pick a fight again)pls jus pls dun make mi feel like giving up on u..

i've no intentions on starting an entry like that.. but bah.. watever.. people can really affect people.. haiz.. pls let mi see my baby soon.. soon.. i've got things planned already..
its nothing really exciting.. there's no where i wan u to pei mi go. or bring mi out to play.. i only wanna spend quality time wif u.. tts all tt matters to mi.. baby.. i miss you.. and im proud of u today.. wif ur 4km road march wif all ur heavy stuff to carry.. its gonna be ur ippt.. test tml.. jiayou ok.. fail nvm.. do ur best can le.. i still love u.. looking forward to thurs..

and bro.. i still love u too.. haiz.. pls dun show mi any attitude anymore.. i really dun think i deserve this shit.. and i really dun think u are these kinda shit i see at times.. please.. argh!

graduation day today was rather bored.. and simple.. attended today's ceremony and had some photo taking sessions.. not in the rite mood to post up pics.. din get to see most of my mates.. aini ger! jw! celine and irene.. but still thank my mom for attending it too la.. bah~

Five surprising reasons men are happy in a relationship
by Bonnie Yuill

Dont be fooled by the male ego.
Men look for more in a relationship than an attractive women who will cook him a good meal and wash his clothes every once in a while. what he really needs is your admiration.

He needs to communicate with you.
A lot of men need to be in a relationship more than women do. Surprising? Not really, when youthink about it. Women usually have close relationships with their friends. They talk about health problems until they feel better. But men dont. As Helen Fielding's character, Bridget Jones, says 'women have emotions and men have football.' Men are competitive and so, in general, they rarely share their emotions or problems with each other, as they think it makes them look too weak. When he needs to open up and talk about his feelings, guess who he eventually shows his vulerable side to? You!

He wants to be your hero.
Knowing that he can make someone else happy makes him feel good inside, because he has the power to change things. And what bloke doesnt secretly want power of some sort? At least if he cant always be top dog at work, he can be a star at home. Instinctively, he aspires to be Spider-man or Superman to be your hero, to be able to make things right: to be appreciated, to be someone's kinght in shining armour. So when you are disappointed or unhappy, he feels responsible. What matters is that you are happy and then he's got one less thing to worry about. Strange but true.

He strives to make you happy.
The number one reason men leaves relationships is because they feel as though they cant meet their partner's needs. This makes them feel inadequate, and it makes them feel as though there's no way their partner can feel respect for them. For women, communication seems to be the top priority in keeping the relationship going but, quite honestly, men dont understand this constant need to talk about things over and over.

For men, the relationship is a success if they feel respected and if they make their partner happy. This is why a new conquest is exactly that as he feels as though he is in charge as he is once again someone's knight in shining armour.

If you resent him because you feel overworked and under-appreciated, stop doing so much as you are probably destroying your relationship! he doesnt want to feel responsible for you rushing around, worn into the carpet, and most men really dun notice whether the housework has been done or not. What they want is respect and appreciation. 'All we really want from women,' a (male) friend recently told me, 'is for you to smile at us.' (And probably one other thing, if he thought about it for longer than a millisecond.)

Sex makes him feel loved.
Sex has the same effect on men as romance does on women. So the reverse is also true: no sex = no love, no approval, no acknowledgement. They get the same sad, unloved feeling that you get when you dont get flowers, your partner looks at other women or ignores you.

You are his(secret) reason for living.
He needs you because you inspire him to do better as he has someone to do things for, goals to reach, a reason to go out and conquer the world. What's the point of being disgustingly rich and powerful if there's no one to share it with? What he needs is the gift of you.

Quoted from a fren's...

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

bro.. pls get to sleep u pig head asshole!! yea.. i had some fun playing ard wif my bro.. had some wrestling.. and slapping.. and scolding and shouting.. haa.. its crazy.. anyway.. bro jus reminded mi bout something i wanted to blog initially.. a few days back.. one day after bro's birthday.. it was this ger's birthday.. and so.. out of courtesy.. bro bought a present for this ger as she bought one for him too.. met at her void deck.. and passed the present to her.. haa.. and guess wat? my bro gave away his first hug to a ger!! other den mi la.. wahahha.. tt was some funny and new experience altogether.. haa.. its funny to see that though.. haa.. his good fren was there too.. and after the ger had initiated for my bro to send her up back home.. he actually declined!! how stewpit was that? haa.. we later realised that my bro was freaking out le.. haa.. bah.. its his first experience and well.. i feel he still do okie la.. at least he din really go that far and do anything that might allow him to spoil the nite and embarass himself..haa..

cute guy.. haa.. anyway stayed home all day and slacked.. went out for dinner wif bro at nite..

hmm.. baby called thrice today.. oh my god.. his voice. is gone! baby is now the IC for his section and also the timer.. and is also the soon-to-be platoon incharge.. haiz.. my baby.. pls dun spring so fast.. haiz.. i knew this was coming.. my baby sure kena aim for this and that one! damn.. i jus hope he will be able to handle all responsibility and on top of that take care of himself.. heartache to hear his voice almost gone.. geez.. baby asked if would i still wan him today.. bah... only make mi tear.. stewpit guy.. hmm..its gonna be the fifth day tml le.. jiayou dear.. nine more days!! ha baby made mi laff at him today.. he din know that when he booked out he would be in smart fall.. and would not be able to hug or hold hands.. still say he cant wait to hug.. haa.. silly baby..

baby..

other than take care.. i only hav take good care for u..
i love you goodnight..

3rd day..

woke up to baby's call today once again.. he's done wif lunch fast and tou tou called mi to chat.. though its jus a short 1.26mins.. im satisfied..

was at nee soon east community centre and celebrating my good fren june's birthday..actual birthday is on the 14th.. went there early and helped out in the setting up of balloons and stuff.. and slowly one by one came.. her parents were friendly.. in fact too friendly.. haa.. shall keep the details to myself.. they actually booked the whole karaoke hall from 630pm till closing which is ard 1230am.. haa.. sang a few songs and soon realise im missing baby.. missing his calls and all.. looked at my phone again and again.. din expect myself to miss his calls five times! haiz. im sorry baby..

anyway baby called later and we chat till lights out.. my baby ran 2km today.. nonstop! tts a good sign.. my baby is still fine. haa.. baby is being appointed as IC for quite a few things including being incharge of his whole section.. theres pros and cons to this.. but i know my baby will always excel in his performance and to their expectations de.. jiayou baby.. but pls pls take care of urself too.. tts top priority.. understood? haa..

yesterday had dinner wif danny and yasi.. danny bought mi this dolphin soft toy at action city.. haa.. and said he even gonna claim it back from dear when he's out.. haa.. he's been real nice taking care of mi.. thanx kor..

anyway bumped into alfie and shunjie and elgene while on the way home too.. been awhile..

i wanna go tanning.. badminton.. swimming.. anyone??
sis? shall we? aini ger.. when ur day off..? and jw ger.. i wanna book u on ur next off too.. time to catch up le..i read ur post and i hope to lend a listening ear okies.. and jie.. keep in touch on ur job posting and stuff okies.. and lastly.. to yiling ger.. hope u dun miss this.. i can sympathise wif u but i know i definitely cannot say i truely understand how u feel.. coz i know u're the extreme case wif ur boy... and im really sorry.. but like wat u said to mi.. its not as if he's gonna stay in there for the rest of his life.. and so long as u both know u both are together.. its all that matters.. lets jus let our boys get it over and done wif okies.. we can only hope for the better.. like u said.. it doesnt make any much of a difference to u anymore.. cheer up ger.. and miss ya all loads!!!!

miss ya dear..
be home soon..

baby's big day...

hey peeps.. guess wat.. my baby finally got enlisted into BMTC sch 2 today at tekong le.. haa..
in like a blink of an eye.. baby is already serving the nation le.. yea!! baby.. fan shi dou yao ren okie.. everything will be fine.. keep a positive thinking too.. i know u can de.. :)

yesterday, baby was still a little sick.. but he went to take his advance theory.. and he passed..
shall not mention any sad happenings..baby went for lion dance.. meanwhile later in the evening baby ride his fren's sp over and took mi for a ride downstairs before he return to sch.. wee!! its rather fast compared to the old phantom.. but its not my type la.. i realise i would rather prefer superfour.. or jus his good old phantom ba.. haa.. took my bro for a ride too.. but in the carpark only.. haa..

anyways i spent the nite over at his place.. my so called last nite wif him.. haa.. kor came over too.. and witnessed us reading off the checklist and packing his bag.. slpt ard 2am.. all of us too anxious for him le.. including his mum too..

woke up in the morning at 6am.. and got ready.. went to pasir ris white sands to hav our breakfast there wif dear and his family.. hee..jingjie later appeared out of nowhere! haa.. wat a fren.. it was meant to be a surprise for him.. he heong inside ah.. later secretly took a ticket from another family which din use up theirs.. lucky loh..

guess wat it read from the notice board at the shuttle bus area?? it states M company pls report here... Mohawk!! if for those whu went in before, would know that its well known for its aggresiveness and siaoness in its training and expectations ba.. especially Ninja and Mohawk company.. haiz.. im crossing my fingers for u baby.. took a shuttle bus over and den a ferry to tekong.. hmm seem like a long yet short ride over.. and before we know it.. we got seperated le.. had a mini bus ride in the training grounds there.. saw the bunks and toilets.. the leisure room air-conditioned wif ping-pong and pool table and tv.. saw their SOC too.. standard obstacle course.. they call it the ns men's playground lei.. the swimming pool and other training grounds la..

later had a mini presentation done by the officers and sergeants there.. and tts where this guy in full camo stood as a model for us.. haa.. in full combat and rifle too.. haa.. i went up to try and lift the bag.. and realise its not really tt heavy la.. haa.. for a ger like mi to say this.. i think it shouldnt be a prob for the rest of the guys in there. haa..

later we went to the canteen to wait while baby and the rest got ready wif their oath taking ceremony.. and meanwhile.. i spotted a cute guy.. really cute one.. told his elder sis and she even agreed wif mi loh.. haa.. mi mi yan jus like wang xi's.. sharp distinct nose wif a kissing lips.. real cutie.. haa.. anyway.. we headed to the auditorium and sat through the whole thing la.. btw jingjie fall asleep listening to the presentation and video clips man!.. he even snored!!

den its lunch time together.. sadly i din touch my rice or chicken chop a single bit.. im still fulled up from the breakfast meal.. den after lunch its time to really say bye bye le.. baby hugged all and thanked them for coming to see him off.. den baby turned to mi and kissed mi on my lips without a word.. i'll always remember that soft look on his face.. and mi there still trying hard to hold back my tears.. haa.. yea! i did it baby.. i managed to see u off happily.. am i a good ger or wat.. haa.. but hell la.. after he turned his back and report to his platoon.. i was already almost drowning myself wif my own tears le.. wahahha.. kiddin la.. i manage to hold till i see his parents off.. haa..

baby.. baby.. im gonna see a baby boy change into a young man.. haa.. i cant wait for ur return.. pls be alright and take good care.. i wanna touch ur baby botak head.. haa.. i love u dear dear..

shall wait for ur cal tonite okies baby???

btw.. i jus heard a bike sound from downstairs.. and .. tots jus ran wild and.... tears.. argh..
im fine la baby.. :)
i will be..

jus like the way my office lift lobby is sanitised and sweetly scented daily.. or so i guess.. but its gonna be the last day im here at the office doing basically nothing..yea feel bad too.. getting paid for nothing.. im jus checking mails and answering calls.. how else relaxed can i be.. or rather.. bored..

bah.. watever..

was reading xiaxue's blog yeaterday to get over some time.. and i jus came across some farni parts tt would like dear to hav a look too.. being too muddlehead and blur.. i jus spoke and commented on the post and he started to get blur.. like wat the hell ima toking about.. but before i could explain where i was coming from i was being shut off alr.. how nice.. yea.. its my fault however for being in my own world and being jus myself.. the blur nonsensical ger..

shall be back again..
going on a missiion for my boss..

baby i miss u.. imsorry for being mi..

firstly.. jie.. wanna thank you for the msg.. and for reading my blog too.. haa.. i will take ur words in..

today is my momma's birthday.. and so.. we had made arrangements to hav dinner at my place nearby.. grandma treated.. yea she insisted.. and baby went wif us too.. too bad daddy wasnt there.. hmm.. a little bored.. but all went well..

dear sent my mom home after dinner.. can see the excited face.. got home later and den we gave her the present we bought the day before.. yea and she was glad wif the bag and wallet.. watched some tv and den we dozed off in my room. haa.. woken by bro soon though.. den soon i was sending dear off le..

baby.. i jus wanna say thank you again.. though i said many times le.. thankyou for making my popo and momma so happie.. they were so glad wif u ard more .. can u feel it? haa.. jus thank you.. and im sorry i almost coz the nite to end nastily.. but am thankful for ur assurance msg.. i jus needed that.. u know mi dear.. im sorry.. im jus to anxious to ket u know of the situation.. i dun wan any misunderstanding and spoil the nite last min.. thank you baby.. love you.. good night..

baby..

i jus had a little arguement wif bro..
..
i miss you..

its hard.. its really hard.. for mi to try get all inside and not be able to let it out.. i used to think that listening to his side will do.. so long as i understand his reasons and explanations.. there's no need for him to understand how i feel.. coz i tot that was nv important..

but it seemed harder each time..

as i got to be so cautious.. of my every little action and make sure i wasnt too crude with my words or actions to provoke him further.. can u imagine? i cant even be myself when i quarrel or hav an arguement wif him.. i got to be careful.. jus so i dun irritate him further.. will he understand that? will he understand my effort? its not easy.. really..

the reason why? tts because im too scared of him.. im too scared of getting into a quarrel wif him.. coz its always not fair.. he always ALWAYS get his side of the story explained and understood.. but i was nv heard or understood.. and i hav to chose to go quiet.. why? coz its useless trying to explain to someone when he or she is already angry or not having an open mind to listen..

once i say something thats against him.. he will straight away shoot back wif his supporting reasons.. den when will i ever get my whole side of the picture out? why is it always u get to jus be yourself and be excused but when if im the one being myself.. i would be deemed as an "ah lian"? wun he be a gangster? wun he be the one irritating brat or watever names i wanna call? why is it that once u wan to talk u can talk.. but i gotta wait till u finish your say? why do i always hav to get ur picture but u can go without bothering bout how i feel when u said u did? wat gives u the rite to say i dun understand u when i too feel u do not understand mi too?

u are jus too emotional. too soft. u said u changed.. yea u did.. quite a fair bit i would say.. but its not enuff to keep u going if u still remain this persistent and stubborn and impatient im telling u.. u hav to know one thing.. that is.. if u wan to speak, that does not mean others hav got no choice but to listen.. this is reality. and not a forum.. where u can type and say all u wan and be hear.. and at least get things out.. u gotta learn how to analyse things and start looking at yourself.. its jus silly when we hav to be so precise and exact with our words..

i know u hav good vocab but dun hav to be so formal wif mi at home.. and pls dun always say i deny.. let mi ask u.. can u take it lying down if i were to keep insisting that u were denying yourself? i bet u would go crazy.. tts another one thing u've gotta change.. i took in all the shit u said bout mi.. but i bet u cant stay quiet and let others say things bout u.. u are.. jus so... explosive.. and to think u could even be so emotional that u teared upon not being able to explain yourself jus coz u cant remember things well.. let mi say one thing more.. if u can forget i can also forget things i wanna say to explain myself alrite.. so dun be selfish.. its jus getting more and more irritating if this goes one.. there can nv be one time when i would jus be myself explaining my arguements wif u.. i will always hav to hold a nice face for u.. so that i dun provoke u.. u see.. this is how scared i am of u.. but i din like it bro.. i miss da.. sometimes i think i leave a very bad impression on u.. to think u could actually tell mi that u imagine yourself strangling mi.. why? jus coz i stop u from carry on explaining? grow up la.. u said u change.. den try to analyse the situation ard u first can?

when was it the one time u would agree to my explainations? nv! u will always hav things to say.. but do u ever said anything bout urself? this is not mi when i quarrel or hav arguement.. this is not the way to go.. coz i cant get things off my chest that way.. i would nv be satisfied wif the ending.. u will always get ur thoughts out and den i will be left alone to cry the nite away and blame myself for not speaking and explaining for myself.. but would i rather u get more pissed and provoked? i think i love u too much to see u getting hurt or in pain.. to be giving in to u..

yea i ocnsider myself giving in to you.. coz i shut up and listen.. and its LISTEN not jus hear.. its always after the arguement i will be so unsatisfied wif myself but left wif no choice but to accept things the way it is.. why i always connect things from one situation to another? coz it would jus rake up the past from memories ago.. trying to use them as examples to show u how impossible can u be.. but its jus hard.. really.. i really hate this side of u.. u disgust mi..

wat hav i said to u to make mi deserve the ahlian title and those things u said bout mi denying myself and my character..ever thought how i would feel not? u are already throwing mi a challenge by saying all those.. imgaine i say all those bout u? u wun get angry ah? on top of that i already keep quiet and ask u to stop saying and explaining coz i hav no interest for know at the moment.. den u hav to force mi to listen by giving mi that crying face and saying wat not satisfied.. den wat? i satisfied ah? aint i supposed to be the one to talk? haiz.. all for jus wanting to ask u to let the matter rest and stop argueing?? isnt it fucked up? one word. fuck.. really.. u said u wanna give up on the relationship.. again u nv thought how i would feel den jus anyhow spout nonsense? u know how much that matters to mi? how sad it is to hear this shit? it jus show u dun care anymore.. can i say u dun care anymore? u nv once apologise for ur rashness or make mi feel u care bout the both of us.. to mi u are jus concern bout saving the misunderstanding and makeing urself in the clear again.. tts it... i really loved u too much.. im really disappointed.. im sorry man.. haiz..

theres jus too much to be jus typed out.. its hard.. pls say u dun mean it when u say u wanna give up.. its tiring.. to always be the one to initiate.. its tiring to try to accomodate all ALL the time.. i had enuff.. i was jus telling monica how close we were and things we do at nite together.. how i treasure u and things.. and this is happening.. yea u're jus making mi feel lousy and bad tts all.. u know it.. thanx ah..

OFFICIAL! WORLD'S FUNNIEST JOKE

LONDON - British Association for the Advancement Of Science, in it's largest ever scientific study into humor, asked Internet users around the world to submit their favorite jokes and rate the funniness of other people's offerings.

After a year of more than 40,000 jokes from 70 countries and two critiques later, this is it:

Two hunters are out in the woods when one of them collapses.
He doesn't seem to be breathing and his eyes are glazed.
The other pulls out his phone and calls emergency services.

He gasps to the operater: "My friend is dead! What can I do?"

The operator in a calm, soothing voices replies:
"Take it easy. I can help. First, let's make sure he's dead."

There is a silence, then a shot is heard.

Back on the phone, the hunter says, "Ok, now what?"

- Reuters.

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now i officially do not think that its the funniest joke ever.. but bah.. watever.. haa.. im jus rather bored in the office at the moment.. its ben confirmed.. i'll stop in the end of this month.. continuing to wat i wrote previously in the blog about decisions and confessions.. it turned out quite well for the conversation between mi and boss.. everything was understood well and there was agreement too.. yea but i still feel bad and rather rude.. to be behaving so undecisively.. to say come den come.. and go den go as and when i like.. i think personally that its a bad impression left.. but i cant help feeling irritated for getting paid but not doing any actual jobs at the moment.. waiting for emails only.. coz currently boss went overseas..

i miss my baby..

short story on the principals of working attitude

The Uncommon Professional
The Uncommon Professional By Kenneth L. Shipley

I went to the dark end of the inventory shelves, pressed my forehead against the wall and indulged myself in a few moments of quiet despair. Was this the way it would be for the rest of my life? Here I was, two years out of school, working at yet another mindless, low-pay, dead-end job. Up to this point, I had avoided the question by just not thinking about it, but now, for some reason, the awful possibility had come crashing down on me. The thought sucked every bit of energy from my body. I clocked out sick, went home to bed, pulled the covers over my head, and tried to forget about tomorrow and all the tomorrows that would follow.

By morning I was a little more composed, but no less depressed. Listlessly, I went back to work and resumed my hopeless drudgery.

There were several new guys on the job that morning - temporary workers even lower on the totem pole than I was. One of them caught my eye. He was older than the others, and wearing a uniform. The company didn't issue uniforms - in fact, the company did not care what you wore as long as you showed up. But this guy was decked out in smartly pressed tan trousers and work shirt, complete with his name, Jim, embroidered on the pocket. I guess he supplied himself with the uniform.

I watched him all that day and the rest of the days he worked with us. He was never late or early. He worked at a steady, unhurried pace. He was friendly to everyone he worked with, but rarely talked while he was working. He took the designated breaks at midmorning and afternoon with everyone else, but unlike many others, he never lingered past the allotted time.

At lunchtime, some of the crew brown-bagged it, although most of us got our meals and drinks from the vending machines. Jim didn't do either. He ate his lunch from an old-fashioned steel lunch box and drank his coffee from a Thermos bottle - both of them well-worn with use. Sometimes people would be a little careless about cleaning up after they ate. Jim's place at the table was spotless, and, of course, he was always back on the line exactly on time. He wasn't just odd, he was outstanding - admirable!

He was the kind of worker managers dream of. Despite that, the other workers liked him, too. He didn't try to show anybody up. He did what was asked of him, no more, no less. He didn't gossip or complain or argue. He just did the job - common labor - with more personal dignity than I had believed was possible with this kind of low-level, grunt work.

His attitude and every action proclaimed that he was a professional. Labor might be common; he wasn't.

When the temporary work was finished, Jim left for another job, but the impression he made on me didn't. Even though I had never talked to him, he turned my head completely around. I did the best I could to follow his example.

I didn't buy a lunch box or a uniform, but I did start setting my own standards. I worked like a businessman fulfilling a contract, just the way Jim had done. To my great surprise, the managers noticed my new productivity and promoted me. A few years later, I promoted myself to a better-paying job with a different company. And so it went. Eventually, many companies and many years later, I started a business of my own.

Whatever success I've had has been the result of hard work and good luck, but I think the biggest part of my luck was the lesson I learned from Jim so long ago. Respect doesn't come from the kind of work you do; it comes from the way you do the work.

some food for thoughts.. for those of my close frens whu are about to embark on new endeavours of the working life.. take care..

just when i thought that everything was finally settled, i realised there were more consequences.. i did not settled as well as expected afterall.. place and environment was still okie.. but its the atmosphere and the feeling it give mi.. the people.. it jus makes mi think how was i suppose to survive in that environment two three years down the road.. i know i cant jus make judgement being there only for the first day..

now the consideration part comes.. is it the future prospects factor or is it the environmental factor and the obstacles that i face now that matters? i do not know.. i really do not know.. if im the one advicing someone else.. i would advice on focusing on future prospects.. not on just the temporary surface..

i thank God for listening ears.. JW and monica and huifen jie.. mom dad and bro.. not forgetting my dearest.. thank you all people.. i feel i've bugged enuff people bout jobs and its really time for mi to decide for myself wat would come next.. but i jus sux at decision making.. sigh..

i jus feel i aint gonna pull through the confrontation tml.. oh gawd.. sigh... i need time..

hopefully i'd address the situation properly.. and all goes well.. baby.. i really thank God for u..

dear almighty.. i hope i would make the rite decision watever comes to mi tml..

**aini ger.. hows ya first day at work.. hope things are opposite for u and all is fine okies.. take care and miss ya...

sis i hope and earn to meet u up tml.. haiz.. baby.. i would like to hav u witness my working environment whether i stay on or not.. hee..
baby.. my only source of happiness now.. where i can fully relazx and jus be myself.. haiz..

its only less then three weeks more to go.. drats.. arghh..

confessions decisions and directions..

just when i thought that everything was finally settled, i realised there were more consequences.. i did not settled as well as expected afterall.. place and environment was still okie.. but its the atmosphere and the feeling it give mi.. the people.. it jus makes mi think how was i suppose to survive in that environment two three years down the road.. i know i cant jus make judgement being there only for the first day..

now the consideration part comes.. is it the future prospects factor or is it the environmental factor and the obstacles that i face now that matters? i do not know.. i really do not know.. if im the one advicing someone else.. i would advice on focusing on future prospects.. not on just the temporary surface..

i thank God for listening ears.. JW and monica and huifen jie.. mom dad and bro.. not forgetting my dearest.. thank you all people.. i feel i've bugged enuff people bout jobs and its really time for mi to decide for myself wat would come next.. but i jus sux at decision making.. sigh..

i jus feel i aint gonna pull through the confrontation tml.. oh gawd.. sigh... i need time..

hopefully i'd address the situation properly.. and all goes well.. baby.. i really thank God for u..

dear almighty.. i hope i would make the rite decision watever comes to mi tml..

**aini ger.. hows ya first day at work.. hope things are opposite for u and all is fine okies.. take care and miss ya...
sis i hope and earn to meet u up tml.. haiz.. baby.. i would like to hav u witness my working environment whether i stay on or not.. hee..
baby.. my only source of happiness now.. where i can fully relazx and jus be myself.. haiz..

its only less then three weeks more to go.. drats.. arghh..

met dear in the late afternoon.. went to the malls of parkway parade.. had the intentions to get new clothings for the start of work.. but failed to get any suitable ones.. jus cause im too small in size le.. haa.. it was a pleasant day afterall.. though i almost spoil the day.. hee..

baby bought some cuttlefish for popo.. we got the iron board cover for her too.. den baby bought mi a top from topshop.. hee.. i like it too.. jus din wanna waste money since we haven got much savings left... den baby bought mi an anklet.. aawww... so sweet rite.. haa.. its a nice treat from baby.. i got to eat my eclair too.. !! nice.. its expensive though..

tts bout all for the day.. baby's watching tv outside now so blogging while waiting for him to join mi in bed.. its gonna be in less then two more weeks before i start seeing less of dear and really putting myself into working life.. hmm.. gotta start telling myself to start sleeping early and not be late for work.. especially my workplace requires mi to walk quite a far bit in.. hmm.. any kindsouls wanna give mi a ride there and back?? im on nine to five daily.. haa..

also i received the letter for graduation ceremony le.. told fana i'd be going for it.. so hope to see my peeps there too.. other than the chalet too.. btw it started today le.. jus that i'd be joining them tml for the bbq.. gotta really get home early and start preparing for work le.. as soon as i start my "holidays".. its ending le.. hope i'll get used to it fast ba..

dear god.. as i place all my frens and loved ones in your hands.. i hope to see good things happening.. and that all will run smoothly for all.. one by one all will soon be embarking on new endeavours..

hmm.. my baby has checked in.. haa.. nite all..

haven got a chance to really sit and talk wif dear.. for a moment i feel him disappearing and den he appeared at the park behind my flat.. already glad to see him so soon things got off my mind and he stayed over..

hmm.. jus got home from di's place.. watched 'hostel' and 'erotrip' or sumthin.. it was good.. both of them.. haa.. was suppose to be a swimming and gym day.. but things din jus go as planned.. as always.. so we head off to town for my bro's phone collection.. den to ah boy motor shop.. baby jus got a new helmet.. haa.. no time for shootin of pics.. but anyway.. shall post up some if im not too lazy.. haa..

mean time im gonna hav another interview tml for di's mum.. hope to let all run well and smoothly.. so i can soon embark on my working life.. wahahha.. hmm.. although its scary.. oh well..

tts all for now.. ima gonna check my mails den off to lala land.. haa..
class chalet this fri.. hmm..

call mi baby..
huggies..

been quite awhile since i got down to blogging again... busy wif the interviews i got from UOB.. hoping to get settled down somewhere fast.. though i hav got the jitters for them too..

was away from the com to get koko krunch for my bro.. haa.. not forgetting kino's share.. haa.. but without the milk.. he likes it that way.. hmm anyway.. back to my interviews.. got a cal from the HR on monday.. so i went down on tue.. was told i'd get a reply by the next week fri but they called mi up rite the next day.. so i had my second interview on thurs.. now waiting for their call.. but i know i din do well for my second interview though..

got to know quite a few new frens there at serangoon sushi tei.. its really a nice place to work at.. but its never easy to try blend in to a new environment.. wif new people.. its jus that i've seen a few situations where ppl badmouthed others.. bah... not my type of clicks i would say..

hmm knocked off today to see kor outside the doors of sushi tei hee.. so glad.. it really feels good to see a familiar face outside ur workplace to see u or pick u up.. haa.. it would be better though if its dear.. but anyways.. had my greetings at the pub den kor sent mi to the busstop den said bye le.. on my way home at tpy bus interchange.. i had an encounter wif a mad woman.. oh god i think i can call her the fruit swearing lady.. as i was walking through the underpass i noticed this old lady.. den as i went ahead of her.. she actually began to go 'tsk tsk tsk.. woot!woot! squeeze!! watermelon juice.. watermelon juice!! ' and i can tell u its the swearing tone she's using.. tts the reason why i said she's the fruit swearing lady.. haa.. all the way till the busstop.. till i manage to shake her off.. when my bus arrived.. haa.. damn.. she even spat lo.. lucky thing not in my direction.. haa..

k la.. my bro has been disturbing my and wanting the com.. baby.. jus a note to u in case u read it.. do take care and lemme accompany u to the doc if u're anywhere not feeling well okeis.. nite baby.. sweet dreams..
ring mi.. anytime if u need to.. im here..

its dearies mama birthday today.. i went home to get changed after work and brought the present and two mangoes for dear along wif mi.. had a hard time trying to flag for a taxi.. finally reached dear's place an glad i wasnt the last one their waiting for afterall..

we had dinner at the no signboard seafood restaurant.. crabs was good.. the deep fried cereal prawn was good too.. i tasted the fried cereal only though.. during the dinner.. i felt i was getting quite an attention.. which i din feel really good.. coz it was suppose to be his mama's day not mine.. we were talking about jobs and salaries and stuff.. yea.. and both his jie were so enthu bout giving mi tips on how to go about getting a higher pay..

went back to his place and watch tv.. danny came.. i din know till he arrived.. baby prolly called mi over ba.. watever.. chatted.. and jus when we were bout to leave.. i had to spoil things again.. its jus a big mistake not to think through ur head before u speak.. it brings about a misunderstanding and lots of explaination which can be tiring.. and brings down my self confidence and esteem too.. its the first time ever im publishing that fact bout myself.. watever.. im jus too tired to keep trying so hard to make someone understand by explaining so much without getting much in return.. but its been always the case.. so shouldnt i be already comfortable wif this habit? haiz.. i need to slp.. i hope for a better tml..

im sorry baby.. i know this is prolly the hundredth time i apologise.. tell mi a better thing to say.. love you still..

nite.

many people been asking if hav i found a job yet.. or rather settled down wif the rite and suitable job yet.. the answer is no.. i hav not.. and many hav also scolded mi stewpit to give up a chance to go for an interview for UOB when they called mi up.. and now i hav to wait for them to return call.. which is something very unlikely to happen.. .oh gawwd..

so rite now im settling down back wif my old part time job as a waitress in sushi tei.. except that its at serangoon gardens.. no longer fareast.. i miss my gers at fareast.. aww...

i worked upstairs today at the tatami room.. its so fun.. to open the lift and take out the food.. and get ur orders through ordering digitally.. haa.. its fun.. heard that they are going to change all outlet's uniform soon.. inbout two weeks time??
haa. i hope i dun look too kiddy in it.. im kiddy enuff le..

baby came to fetch mi up today after work.. and we went to orchard.. its been a long time since i last walked orchard.. jus walking down the streets wif dear make mi feel so blessed.. its been real long.. hee.. we caught a movie at cine too.. Mission Impossible 3.. its a good show.. worth every cent.. keeps u in suspense all the way.. yea..

speaking of which.. my dearest yiling ger was at cine today as well.. but oh well.. we din bump into each other.. she caught the Hostel wif her dearie.. and damn! its rated R21.. and she managed to sneak in all fine!! i wanted to watch it too.. damn!! but its a sure thing i would be thoroughly checked first.. haa.. shit..

haiz.. its been a tiring day.. but i enjoyed my day to the fullest.. thanx baby.. tml is dear's mom's birthday.. though she wun be seeing this.. i us wanna wish her a big happie birthday and nian nian you jing ri.. fu ru dong hai.. shou bi nan shan.. shen ti jian kang.. :) will be having dinner over wif dearie's family tml after work.. :) sure im heading home for a bath first.. haa.. else i'll smell of sashimi and sushi rice all over..

nite all..
huggies..

been working four days at serangoon le.. and today's the first day i got to work wif jingwen.. happie.. and its not that stressed wif her ard afterall.. went to cafecartel after closing and chilled.. got to realise that our supervisor knew a fren there and we get not discounted, but free food.. haa..
wat do i do on my 21st turnoveR? not planned for the moment.. maybe go on a short holiday.. wif dear.. hmm.. however i got to attend my old sec sch gd fren clarice's 21st birthday yesterday.. met up wif sis rite after we both got off work.. and took a cab down to pasir ris.. it was kinda last min wif our pretzies and wrapping paper and cards.. dear and danny was already there.. glad that i attended it though we were all tired and reluctant to go down initially.. im jus glad to realise she even got to already introduce her bf to her family.. no more doing things secretly le.. but there was some weird atmosphere there.. shant prob too much..

got dear to spend the nite wif mi last nite.. i jus wan him over esp last nite.. no particular reason.. and dear did jus so.. :) thanx baby.. hope i din drool too much to scare u off.. hee.. rest well baby.. drink plenty of water.. dun wan u sick before enlisting..

take care peeps..

forgot to post.. baby said my new blog skin was nice! haa.. i bet its coz of the color ba.. it used to b dull and black.. haa.. thanx baby..

one thing good to start with.. im early!! wasnt late for work! yea.. gotta thank baby for sending mi to work..

today was not quite packed..but its already considered super busy for mi..got so much to learn.. the places where things can be found.. the way of ordering.. haa.. but it was definitely fun.. a totally different environment from my previous outlet.. seem to forgot all the ropes and tactics of working in sushi tei le.. gonna see jw this sunday evening.. haa..

gotta depend on myself for not being late tml le.. and jus when i started to hav a part time.. i got replies from my agent.. and UOB jus asked mi down for an interview tml.. i knew tt its gonna come all one shot.. i jus hate decisions ..

was trying to keep cool and hope that baby u would slowly stop flaring up at mi.. was so close to shaking off my tears till u asked why i cry.. but im sorry for making silly predictions bout wat im planning to do in future.. i was jus.. haiz.. but thanx for waking mi up and telling mi how difficult it is to be.. ... huggies..

starting work this wed.. hope to bump into jw soon.. and give her a surprise.. haa.. haiz.. its been a long time.. hope its still manageable there ba..

i miss all my frens.. been stuck home for quite awhile le.. hmm..

how hav u been sis.. dun work so hard till u've got no time for urself.. and aini ger.. lets try to make some time to meet up and catch up okies.. jw haa.. sure bump into u one of these days.. yiling ger.. remember our promise our goal okies..and when wanna bring mi out for nite supper.. haa.. fana darlin.. got any job yet so far?? and monica jie.. when go tpy walk walk.. and jeremy kor.. ord liaoz.. haa.. when bring mi out for a ride.. haa.. shiok liao lo.. my dear going in soon ah.. sobzsobz.. and ryan do take care of urself while shooting and serving ns and working part time ah.. haa..

lastly.. my dear.. though i hope to have more time wif u too.. more sincerely.. i hope u would stay home and spend more time wif ur mama and family.. time is nv enuff.. haiz.. haa.. pls take care of urself.. slp more regularly okies baby.. though i know theres ur frens and bros.. haa.. i hope to still see more of u while we can.. okies?? i've been missing u baby.. so much.. love u..

* i need to correct my msg last nite.. not jus on ur part but i hope we can help each other to get our day and nite correct.

theres so many movies i wanna watch.. most of them out in may.. hopefully then, i can get to see dear more often le.. :)
*Mirrormask
*Hostel
*Black Night
*Reincarnation
*Inside Man
*Mission Impossible 3
*When A Stranger Calls
*The Da Vinci Code

rite.. my connection is down for the meantime.. coz we missed the bills for two months.. and im blogging illegally now.. haa..

since the day i went out wif yiling. she's been helping mi alot wif the seraching of jobs.. and kept introducing mi lots.. jus dun understand why she can get so many list of them while i cant.. realyl thanked her for all the help..

jus the other nite i was on the phone wif dear.. and i can tell u.. its rare to hav him callin in the middle of the nite and chat.. we chatted long into the nite.. though there was a little misunderstanding.. and mi messing up the conversation even more.. i know that on the whole, dear cared for mi.. that explains why he desperately wans mi to understand his point of view.. but i fali to let him understand that all i did was actually to try make myself available for him at this point of time.. even though at the end of the day i still did not meet him.. im still happie coz i know im there if he needs mi or wat.. so that's partly the reason why i kept rejecting the offers to work.. im sorry baby.. i understand where u're coming from okies..

jus this morning.. my ex manager called mi up to ask if i still available for a job.. he asked mi to go back to help him out at his outlet.. haa.. so happie but im still considering.. hope i can make my decision fast..

last nite went out to meet danny.. intention was to go find dear and hav dinner wif him de.. but baby had his already.. so we're left alone.. we ended dinning at burger king.. den we went to the fountain of wealth and chill.. listened to the songs there and chat wif him.. made a song dedication too! haa.. my first time.. but baby couldnt hear.. hmm.. anyway.. hope to get a job soon.. for the sake of money and also still make myself available for baby..

take care all frens.. esp to my poly mates.. heard theres gonna b a chalet coming soon.. :)

damn happie.. wee..

today was a day not wasted at all.. got to meet up wif my good old fren.. yiling ger.. spent time catching up alot.. haa.. vice versa and not jus mi talking all the way.. haa.. met her after her last day of work today for her part time.. den we went down to tampines to sign up at the agencies for yet another assignment.. hope they will reply soon.. coz i really 'liong' le..haa a new word from her.. haa.. hope this time can get to work wif her together again.. btw the guy who attended to us at the agency was yiling's agent.. din know the agents there were all handsome and pretty.. yea all of them.. prety and handsome.. haa.. and so was ours.. haa..

fana ger and sis called and msg mi too while i was on the way to the agencies.. haa.. glad to hear from them.. and sis im sorry i cant accompany u down there.. but its gonna be a painful experience lei.. but u will look nice la.. haa.. next time u bring mi down ba.. okies.. haa.. save up first.. haa.. we mus save up den can go shopping soon!!

and celine.. thanx for introducing mi the HR assistant job.. haa.. i willl get back to u as soon as i hav any other news okies.. thanx.. and take care in the meantime..

hmm.. we walk alot today.. century square and tampines mall..and to plaza sing haa.. den came across the self recording company.. haa.. so damn excited lo.. the package was so attractive.. i really wanna do so.. if only i hav the ability to do so.. i would put my name down for an appointment le.. haa.. i wish.. i wanna do big.. strike it rich..dan hav lots of money.. i wan to be able to buy clothes and new shoes and all without having to look at the price tags!! haa.. possible ma...hope im not jus dreaming.. but den again.. money isnt everything either.. haiz.. yiling.. we will try to go back there and do recording together okies.. promise.. :) oh gawd.. 4songs for the price of 100 bucks.. plus pro song editing, cd cover design, plus menu list.. hmm.. i wanna go.. argh..
baby wans to support mi there too.. but haiz.. dunno lei..
its jus a long awaited dream that i've nv spoken to anyone about.. hoping to get an album of my very own.. hmmmm... i wan a sugar daddy..

anyway.. wanna start working and save up for alot of things le.. hmm..
i miss u baby.. been real long since we last went out for a walk le.. hmm.. miss you.. so much.. hope u enjoyed today too..

went ubin last friday.. finally get to see baby.. danny and di, di's mum came along too.. wif two other frens.. so a total of 7 of us.. reached ubin n it started to drizzle and we were greeted with a big crowd.. totally lost interest in cycling le.. the crowd and the people, the rain.. and the slippery roads making mi feel irritated.. and my bike isnt suitable either.. so i dropped the idea of cycling altogether.. decided to head back to stay wif auntie and her two frens.. so dear and the rest accompanied mi back.. im such a pain.. i know.

stayed at the seafood centre while waiting for the rest.. and mean while enjoyed talking wif his mum and we even got to know another 'angmoh' couple there too.. throughout the whole conversation, i was full of respect and admiration for her knowledge and the interest in so many languages.. she is one woman of a career and mother.. but she has a strong persistent character as well.. haa.. everyone has got their bad sides.. besides i was asked to help out at her company in the meantime.. will get to know her better.. but will consider first..

had dinner at di's place.. dinner was tempting and lip-smackin.. i guess its prolly coz i haven had home cooked meals for long le ba.. it was jus great.. i helped myself to the dishes alot.. hee.. den decided to stay out that nite.. yea coz of a silly call.. watever..

went dear's place stay over wif our self created queen-sized bed.. we slept like babies.. haa..
baby cooked mi meefen soup.. my favourite.. and had beancurd too.. i still hungwee so had more biscuits.. den watched vcd till we knocked off to dreamland.. haa..

dunno why but i gotta say i felt especially good that nite.. all the little actions done.. i felt more of dear.. in a way i feel more loved and pampered.. from the way he placed the tissue box for my ease at nite.. to tucking mi in.. and cooking for mi.. jus feel good.. thank you baby.. im glad that its one day i din do anything stewpit to spoilt any of our mood.. :)

i love you..

baby jus droped by wif cunxi too..

nite..

sometimes.. life is just..
u cant make someone love u..
u can only be someone whu can be loved..
the rest is up to the person to realise ur worth..

baby.. somehow i feel you're still awake.. are u?? its 4.27am le.. still fidgeting in bed.. so got up to blog an entry.. din wan to msg u or i might wake u up.. wat are u doing baby??

woke up ard 3pm and went downstairs to meet danny kor.. pei mi hav lunch.. we went to the place i long wanted to bring dear there to eat de.. but nv seem to hav the chance to do so.. weird hor?

chat wif joe on msn jus now.. got to know more bout him.. and his past relationship.. this thing between bros and gfs.. how to chose between them?? its jus like how often i used to ask dear.. if one day both mi and his mum fall into the sea.. whu will he save first?? how do u make a decision between those?? weight them on who's more important? its gonna be unfair.. and its really sad if we as gf keep insisting that they make a choice between the both..

anyways.. gotta thank eileen for giving mi the agencies contact.. im gonna cal them up to ask bout the part time job.. hope i really get to do some work.. getting kinda sick and tired of nowadays le.. meeting jw tml evening.. hope yiling is doing fine.. and sis dun over work.. monica jie found job le ma?? miss all my sch mates too.. hope all's doing fine..

lastly, i miss u baby.. i dun feel good.. dun know why..

baby jus went home.. sent baby downstairs.. dunno why but i've been feeling down for the whole day alr.. slpt ard 4am last nite.. yea once i hit the bed.. i fall into dreamland rite away.. tts how tired i am.. woke up this afternoon.. to see baby looking at mi.. feels good.. wish i can wake up everyday this way.. we had coco crunch and later baby cooked meefen tang for mi.. jus like it so much.. but its different eating it at my place compared to his room.. watch tv and more tv.. tts all we do the whole day.. though i love to jus slack and do nothing.. but somehow i jus feel as the hrs passed.. i seem to be in a bad mood.. wanna apologise for my attitude behaviour temper or mood.. or watever u cal it.. haiz..

well yesterday.. woke up waay early to meet yiling ger.. went to attend the GB gers enrolment service..met up wif peiyun diana and agnes.. these few of us are the left overs.. haa.. met ms amy and ms tay too.. heard alot of things and updated myself bout the gers too.. anyway.. its been a real long time since i last went back to GB le..

after the whole thing.. we were hungwee so head to our old place for tom yum fried fish noodles.. haa.. den went to walk walk lo.. caught up wif yiling too.. and was really taken aback by her situation.. or plight maybe.. ger i hope you dun feel so caught up in time to come.. and do take care of yourself and dun over work too.. and thanx for sharing.. really feel honoured.. coz its been really long since we last met le.. and im jus glad that nothing has changed much..
i appreciate your trust for mi as much as u do likewise.. take care ger.. keep in touch again okies.. oh ya.. do rem to intro mi to ur wonderful instructor kkz.. haa..

left yiling at the platform and went to look for dear.. had dinner wif him and pei him till after work.. den bought sushi.. haa.. our timing was so rite.. the moment we reached the bottom the announcement came on saying all sushi is half priced!! so we bought some home.. tts how baby stayed over..

baby lets not take advantage of staying over till the extend where u will feel sian coming over okies.. dun wish for that day to come.. but its true that you've been staying out almost every other day loh.. i bet your mum would be so sad not to be able to see you staying home accompanying her.. baby.. i do like u over definitely.. but i hope we do not do it too often till u feel sian.. understand ma?? it would not be better off without u at my place.. i would definitely feel worser today.. im sorry.. i love you..

got home early this morning @ 830am.. yawnz..
went out late last nite pubbing at our cosy bar again.. had martel.. and btw the food there is goood too.. cheesy fries and fried chicken wings.. no neeed any chillies for tasting.. its good enuff alone! haa.. den went over to di's place and all of us went crazy doing our very own 'ba sian guo hai' 'da zhong xiao' and many more.. haa.. shall upload the pics sooon.. haa.. barely slpt the previous nite.. so i got up in time to wake bro up for his bb.. together we took a cab back home..

had real good time together wif them.. really happie for this period of time.. though im not really doing anything at this period of time.. im actually taking this opportunity to meet up wif my old frens again ba.. recently jus the other day i met up wif monica jie.. haa.. and glad to know that i still got u to back mi up in times of need.. thanx jie.. and sis.. after alot of procrastinating during our sch times huh?! hee.. we got our deal of time together. yea but i know its not enuff.. not forgetting yiling ger.. im gonna meet up wif her tml le.. and of coz my jiaren danny cunxi and baby.. frens are really great siblings that God had forgotten to give us.. :)

since the day i got to know of dear's nsf enlistment arrived, i've been feeling more emo.. more dependent.. more soft.. and vulnerable.. haa.. is it all the pre-effect? dunno but i jus dun wanna keep counting down to it.. haiz.. baby..

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[rite at the back of my head.. ah di.. watever ur mum has in hands for u.. i believe its for the sake of ur future too.. really think through wat u hav in mind and share it wif ur mum okies.. she will listen.. if u use the soft approach.. dun let her see ur stubborn side.. we all hope for the better for u.. huggies..]

im exhausted.. not from the time i spent wif sis over the past one day.. but the fact that i got stuck outside my home.. coz i forgot to bring my keys out along with mi.. and due to desperate need of toilet.. i reached for a hanger from grandma's room window and twisted it long enuff to hook out the keys from my room window.. thank God my window isnt locked.. if not i would've pee-ed outside my home.. altogether i took almost half hr outside my house.. others might think im a robber or wat.. haa..

went out yesterday in the afternoon to meet sis.. after accompanying granny to the ntuc to get some groceries.. since i was running late again.. pushed time back half hr meeting her.. den bath and rushed out.. but instead of swimming we were caught stuck in J8 walking ard.. coz of the rain.. argh!! and so.. we went window shopping.. haa.. yea while still wearing our swim suit inside.. and den.. we tot of another nasty idea.. and so.. we head to the highest floor.. and den.. we end up buying tics to two movies show.. wahahha.. not one but two.. haa.. "Ultravoilet" and "The Hills Have Eyes".. their good.. hee.. especially the latter.. its not really a horror show but puts u in suspense and excitement.. and gets u real violent.. till a certain extent mi and sis was even enjoying the hacking of monsters body that part.. haa.. gruesome.. and definitely not for the faint hearted. haa.. ok enuff advertising for the show.. haa..

den we went to grad a bite at ThaiExpress.. there the service so so .. food also ok la.. but the dessert there was good.. haa.. and after ordering our food den we realise our show will be on in like fifteen minutes.. so bein us silly gers.. we rushed through our hot food and even managed to still chat along the way.. haa.. den rushed in for our show.. and den.. being the silly us.. we still tot the swimming complex is open.. so we rushed there but to our dismay.. the guy actually close the door and shut the gates in front of us! @#$^*! and den.. haiz.. decided to stay over her place loh.. since i din wanna go home as yet..

but i think it was the wrong day to stay out ba.. i din feel good rite after dad's call.. and sis ask wats wrong when she came in so i guess she prolly knew something was wrong.. watched vcd den chat a little den off to lala land for sis.. guess i was left on the wrong note to myself to slp.. no matter how i stop myself from fidgetting and opening my eyes.. i jus couldnt get to slp.. its jus not the time for mi to slp yet.. its onli 1230am!! and still so far away from my slping time.. den thoughts wondered.. den i teared.. coz its as though.. i felt all the possibilities of lost and lonliness all in one nite.. on the thought that if dear was already in army.. den i missed dear..so badly i teared.. all the way.. till bout 2 plus before i finally msg dear.. phone gave up on mi rite after i sent the msg.. sad.. but however.. i still felt that dear did reply to my msg.. and so it jus help to make mi feel better.. thanx baby!

this morning woke up ard the same timing as sis.. washed up den head off to yck pool.. haa.. we finally had our swim..haa..

can say i had great fun when wif sis.. but theres jus one thing bugging mi.. and thats the money matter.. its not mi to be taking treats from ppl all the time.. same as her.. coz i noe we both like to treat our frens.. but everything i eat i spent on was on her yesterday.. and for that i really feel bad.. think of the past.. when i was the one to help support her a little here and there.. haa.. wat goes ard comes ard.. really grateful for her.. but maybe its jus that im not used to the fact that i can no longer treat le ba.. anyway.. thanx sis..

baby.. i missed u.. so so much..

couldnt get to slp and its in wee hours of the nite.. wrote dear an email.. he's over at malaysia rite now.. hope he returns home to Singapore soon..

went to sch friday morning at 1030am to meet Mr Lee for my testimonial.. so happie he got it done for mi.. also got to realise tt im the first one whu actually approach him for the testimonial.. seem so kisau.. haa.. watever.. den took a train back to bishan to get carrot cake.. den to dear's place.. hee.. my baby still sleeping when i arrived.. so his mom opened door for mi.. haa.. thanx..

woke baby up and fed him carrot cake.. haa.. without him brushing his teeth yet.. haa.. his gonna kill mi if he come across this entry.. haa.. den slacked.. watch tv and i eventually slept ard afternoon.. coz i actually only slept ard 6am in the morning the previous nite.. had two dreams and one of which was baby out to a football match wif someone whom i felt envy and jealousy for.. haa.. shall not spill a word.. shhhh... haa..

had dinner and bought meefen so i can cook at home.. den bought icecreams for his jiaren too at his provision shop near his home there.... haa.. we made a trip to kor place ard 1030pm.. and watch two vcds before baby sent mi home.. thanx sweetie.. u always volunteered to give mi rides home whether im outside or from sch or anywhere.. and i really appreciate that.. this i know not all boyfrens do.. hee.. time for mi to show off alittle.. haa.. baby will also wilingly bring mi to supper if im hungwee even in the middle of the nite.. haa.. all these and despite the laziness in him.. haa.. my baby...

baby.. come back fast k.. take care..

this is the pic of all of us.. jiaren.. haa..

jus came back from chalet earlier this afternoon.. tired.. but had fun throughout.. during chalet sis joined us in the later nite on the first day after her work.. asri joined us later on the third day too..

activities we had.. cycling.. rollerblading.. swimming.. (almost everynite man..) wildwildwet.. this time no go escape.. ah di's mum came over the first evening.. bringing food over too.. there was fried rice.. hotdog cheese.. fried beefballs.. (their good..) dumpling and chicken wings.. really gotta thank her for all the food.. it kept us full till the next day man..

other past times were spent arcading.. in our room playing xbox.. or drinking away and playing cards.. mahjong and snake and ladder.. haa.. tts an old but all time fun game though.. most interesting happenings were nothing much.. except that i bath wif sis.. haa. recalling back the previous time i did that was ten years back.. when im 11 yrs ba.. haa.. girls to ladies.. haa..

shall not talk much but let the photos do the job..

but before i carry on.. i would like to sincerely apologise on the last nite for pissing dear off for certain actions that i made.. i dun push the blame on the fact that i drank.. coz i know im still wif my senses.. its jus.. it was meant to be an action on purpose.. i do know wat im doing.. jus that i seem to be rather high only.. and that triggered dear to take a stick.. though baby said i wasnt the main cause.. i know.. we all know.. its coz of mi.. baby din wanna make it big so i promised not to mention it again.. jus felt i shouldnt have been so misbehaving.. haiz..

and as for today.. the moment its time to go home.. i knew things aint gonna go anywhere good.. haiz.. and true enuff.. came home had a squibble wif popo.. shant go in details.. did my bedsheets.. unpack my dirty clothes and washed them.. bathed and masked my hair.. ate noodles.. watched tv.. took a nap at 7 till 8pm.. den went downstairs to help ma carry things again.. watched more tv.. dad came home.. tts when it happen..

i quarreled wif mom.. dad din say much though.. fucking bitch always wanna be the good person den everything push to dad.. its the silent attack again.. dunno how to explain.. haiz.. everything was still fine initially.. jus hate it when i hav the mood to talk and discuss things wif then and not get their support.. and they still make it seem like they care alot for u and all the hypocritical shit when they dunno much bout u.. jus makes mi feel so wrong to talk to them at times.. till i even wondered if am i still considered a part of the family.. sometimes its jus the weird feeling..

told mom apart from family.. its dear that i feel is the closest to me already.. that also wrong meh? at least im telling the truth and not like her going behind ppl's back and say things.. fuck it. i know.. i know wat she's thinking.. in her heart she mus be swearing.. saying im stewpit and that i should put family first.. blah blah..

at times its not that i purposely wan to rebel or wat.. i mean i dun like the fact that stewpitfarking bitch cant tell mi straight in the face.. den mus go behind my back.. and do shit. den not enuff.. from one thing can say till another.. say i dun care family.. and bro.. and i only know how to go out play.. cmon i go out for wat wif whu she also dunno.. not dunno.. i think she dun even bother to know.. den carry on say my frens.. mumberone target is .. haiz.. damn saddening la.. dun wanna disclose.. but it jsu makes mi wonder wat the hell in the world is those sickening logic she talked about.. i mean she dun even know mi well.. how to go ard describing my frens.. den start stereo typing misay i dun like to pick up calls from home.. describe till i machiam a small ah lian trying to get attention or run away from home?? grow up man.. get a life!!

suddenly i feel its all coming back again.. dunno how to communcate wif them again.. all of them.. outcasted?? haiz..


sis carry mi in the pool..


five of us.. with an alien twist..


five of us..


all the drinks are mine!!


the best customer award year 2006..




my baby resting..











all thanx to these.. we were kept busy in the nite..


our food supply for five days..


our dinner on the second nite..


hungwee sis..


freeze.. or i'll shoot!!


swinging in the playground..

lastly my fav pic..

world war.. going on..

mom and dad seem to hav some disagreement.. till bro got dragged in as well.. its all coz of a phone call or a simple msg.. there is serious communication problem going on in my family..

bro called it the silent attacker.. which means to say mom goes on complaining about her life and stress and heavy responsibilities and loneliness.. and indirectly blaming it all on dad.. wif my bro coming in between the both to try and help to stop them.. ended up getting himself involved..

actually.. its all very true.. all it takes for a couple to last and maintain a strong relationship.. is trust.. but mom seem to be expecting more.. she demands that dad reports of his every move to her.. even after dad apologise.. she cant take it lying down.. and has to carry on wif her silent attack.. but the most fundamental issue here is actually understanding.. if being together for years doesnt help each other understand each other better.. den there must be serious problem going on.. if one has a function going on and happily attends to his programs.. it might slip off one's mind to msg the other of his wherabouts.. that is his mistake.. but being the other understanding half.. shouldnt it be a minor problem only? it should be understood between each other.. den there will not be any misunderstandings le..

haiz.. but from an onlookers point of view.. i can conclude on one thing, that is my bro should not have interupted at all from the beginning.. why?? tts because mom has a high sense of pride.. and having to quarrel infront of kids and having her kids speaking up but not for her.. she would not know how to get off the stage.. tts because she gets embarassed.. as a matter of fact.. den she will rake up the past and start the ball rolling again.. haiz.. but given mi.. i would also hav spoken up for dad.. poor dad.. always giving in and especially at the wrong time always.. haiz..

this brings mi to think about wat happened jus the other nite.. hav i been demanding much from dear as well.. hav i been growing towards an unwanted behaviour jus like mom unknowingly? its scary.. it seems easy to jus say that all it takes is understanding between one another.. but actually putting it into action is not that simple.. jus need to know that im in good hands.. i wan dear not to allow mi to change.. but im sorry if i had been unreasonable to u.. its jus i hope that our talks would not go to waste.. coz i wan u to know.. i care for u.. it hurts when i jus .. jus only.. jus mention about things.. den without warning u straightaway do silly things.. u understand dear?? im sorry and i love you..

met up wif sis.. like finally.. after procrastinating for so long.. chalet for a 5d4n has been booked.. this coming sun onwards.. ima gonna make it my most enjoyable one.. this would most probably be the last chalet that dear be having before his ns ba..

went to easb today..its a university in singapore although not very well established as SIM or SMU.. haa. but it has got wat sis and i wanted.. if not for the wakening talk i had wif dear.. i would seriously most probably enrol without second thoughts.. though i dun mind ppl's opinion on mi.. but of all ppl it has to be dear to mistake mi for following others in their footsteps.. its been a long ago dream to be able to study in shatec or in relevant hotel industry.. so much said.. but jus one sentence from dear.. can really pull mi down.. its jus the way u tok sense to mi.. to u it may seem like u're jus giving ur opinion.. yea.. its wat i wan afterall.. ur opinion.. but i feel u putting mi down in a way i cant bring myself up to explain.. why has these kinda things been happening recently? haix.. and im sorry i gotta apologise sincerely.. for having to blog and give dear silly thoughts.. its my fault.. but its a blog afterall rite?? whu goes for spelling errors after an entry?? i dun.. jus so glad things are settled.. really..

but at one point in time.. i jus got to be reminded of wat would it be if things are different.. if i hav the same big temper as dear.. and if i dun like talking things out.. and like quarreling instead.. would we hav lasted this long?? yea.. its jus being me.. i love thinking about lotsa silly things.. i tot if it was the reverse way.. den i wondered how long will i be able to keep it in mi..

k la.. back to today.. had nydc after like so so long.. haa.. missed my cousin jeremy kor.. haa.. had the oven baked specialty hawaiian.. while my dear ger had the wat was tt?? er.. something eye one.. haa.. forgot the name le.. thanx sis for the nice treat okies.. till i get my pay after starting my job.. haa.. it'ss be my turn to treat u le.. hee..we go suntec the congress kopitiam there okies.. haa.. or cartel.. or sushi tei.. haa.. went play pool after dinner.. the whole place was empty.. jus all to ourselves.. haa.. make us wanna go chiong.. haa.. but song there abit kuku la.. and throughout the whole time.. i managed to stay cool and though everything was fine.. till sis even said i seem so nonchalent about wat happen between mi and dear.. haa.. but i was jus thinking bout dear.. though i did not show it out.. bet sis knew but jus din say out ba.. bad at explaining things.. jus glad sis was there wif mi loh.. shared stories.. enjoyed today.. except that dear wasnt wif a happie heart..

den took bus 162 wif sis to esplanade.. den 70 to his place.. glad i made the trip.. coz we trashed things out and managed to settle things.. though conversation wasnt good.. but thank God things turned out fine.. gonna go slp le.. and meet dear in dreamland..

time's 1.36am..

waited for my turn to use the lappy.. yea coz im too lazy to turn on the old com.. dear sent mi home after 9pm show.. den he should be hanging out wif danny and the rest at the pub..hope he returns home early.. din get to meet sis afterall.. dunno if will we meet up tml also.. but no idea to go where though.. and worst of all.. no cash.. dotz.. jus worry about baby.. when will you ever learn to rest early.. and improve on your health.. jus hate to see you feelin insecure bout yourself..

recently been feeling unsure.. of the future.. stepping into adult working life soon.. seem so fast.. yet i dun hav any goals or ambitions which could spur mi on.. which makes mi feel so lost at times.. theres jus too many things to worry about in life.. exams are long over for mi.. family had been on track.. other den the occasional squibbles here and there.. work.. and money.. frens and love.. haa.. guess it should be too much of slacking and rotting at home that makes mi feel like i've been wasting time away.. thus thinking too much.. i hope to get something acheived for everyday.. even a simple task at least.. haiz.. but it seemed impossible coz i got too much wants to do le..

okies.. enuff bout silly thoughts..

lets talk bout recently.. been meeting up wif jw..glad i caught up wif her and got her to share wif mi her recent being..definitely hope for the better for her.. even been to her place the other nite..

supposedly, was to meet up wif june today.. but she got two interviews and couldnt afford the time.. so we postponed again.. haa.. its been the third time already.. but still i could feel she was sincere.. and took the effort to reply and inform mi and stuff..

i should be returning to sch tml once again to settle my payment which was the result of a misunderstanding.. hopefully get to do something meaningful tml..

baby.. if not for my msg.. will u tell mi u're gonna stay out again? wats the use of telling u i dun like u going out at nite.. when u would not listen? im jus disappointed.. over wat?? over the fact that i jus mention that i dislike u going to meet them and return late.. yet u still went ahead.. i knew it.. not that i dun like u going out to meet them.. jus that i dun wanna see u making this a habit.. once u go out.. u either return late or nv at all.. haiz.. wat for talk to u so much.. dun wanna get mad.. but help mi not to.. jus disappointed.. see!! coz u did it once again.. u're gonna settle at di's place le den probably tell mi.. or maybe get drunk and slp thru and tell mi tmr??

fine.enjoy.

time's 5:18pm.. guess im gonna be late metting jw at six.. went out to ubin yesterday.. it was definitely fun.. its jus my second time cycling and im at ubin le.. wahahha.. shall upload the pics only later.. if not sure super late de.. hmm.. baby also going to meet his fren.. dunno if i will meet him today.. but he told mi not to hold high hopes.. :( so i shall not den..

shall go bath.. den meet jw ger le.. cya peeps.. pics later.. :)
take care on the road dear..

time's 5:18pm.. guess im gonna be late metting jw at six.. went out to ubin yesterday.. it was definitely fun.. its jus my second time cycling and im at ubin le.. wahahha.. shall upload the pics only later.. if not sure super late de.. hmm.. baby also going to meet his fren.. dunno if i will meet him today.. but he told mi not to hold high hopes.. :( so i shall not den..

shall go bath.. den meet jw ger le.. cya peeps.. pics later.. :)
take care on the road dear..

greetings.. trying to make an entry before one.. to promise to get to bed early.. im going out to cycling again tml.. to pulau ubin.. was missing sis.. and hoping sis could come along too.. but i reckon she'e be working her guts out.. haiz.. take care sis.. and bro take care of urself at the chalet.. its seem to be so long u were away from home.. miss going to bed wif u at nite and toking cock.. bleahz..

been trying to keep it inside me.. but dear seem to know somethings amiss from my voice.. it all started at home.. granny has been giving mi the fucked up attitude.. like i owed her shiats.. since the very moment i wake up she's been giving mi the face.. shout and nag.. seem to be testing my patience for gawd knows wat reason.. i know when one is old, one gets impatient and easily aggitated.. but theres a limit to one's tolerance too.. so its rather hard to give in especially when im tired and sick.. fuck it..

after she got her last blow.. dear brought mi out to play basket ball wif the rest.. still i feel irritated.. hard to get over the fact that i got screwed for nothing.. anyway i appreciate the fact di and dear was there.. and thank god i din threw any tantrums back..

baby jus got his results.. well done baby.. finally everything is over yea?? the whole tertiary education.. is finally over.. couldnt realy express how happy i felt for u over the phone earlier on when i realise how well u did comparing to other sem's results.. im sorry.. i was in the midst of something and u called.. but when im toking to u.. u dun seem to be listening.. or rather was distracted.. so i tot u could've jus called back later.. dun wanna talk much coz of my throat.. but u got mi repeating wat i've said quite a few times today.. its irritating.. gosh i muz be having pms man.. but baby.. above all things.. i jus wanna say thaank you for taking care of mi and making sure i got my medicine and enuff rest and stuff.. i wan the same for u too baby.. take care..

its now 1:15am.. and u're still online.. in the end we din keep to our promise afterall.. maybe i should care less.. and since he got his results onli jus today.. let him be den.. nite..