just when i thought that everything was finally settled, i realised there were more consequences.. i did not settled as well as expected afterall.. place and environment was still okie.. but its the atmosphere and the feeling it give mi.. the people.. it jus makes mi think how was i suppose to survive in that environment two three years down the road.. i know i cant jus make judgement being there only for the first day..

now the consideration part comes.. is it the future prospects factor or is it the environmental factor and the obstacles that i face now that matters? i do not know.. i really do not know.. if im the one advicing someone else.. i would advice on focusing on future prospects.. not on just the temporary surface..

i thank God for listening ears.. JW and monica and huifen jie.. mom dad and bro.. not forgetting my dearest.. thank you all people.. i feel i've bugged enuff people bout jobs and its really time for mi to decide for myself wat would come next.. but i jus sux at decision making.. sigh..

i jus feel i aint gonna pull through the confrontation tml.. oh gawd.. sigh... i need time..

hopefully i'd address the situation properly.. and all goes well.. baby.. i really thank God for u..

dear almighty.. i hope i would make the rite decision watever comes to mi tml..

**aini ger.. hows ya first day at work.. hope things are opposite for u and all is fine okies.. take care and miss ya...

sis i hope and earn to meet u up tml.. haiz.. baby.. i would like to hav u witness my working environment whether i stay on or not.. hee..
baby.. my only source of happiness now.. where i can fully relazx and jus be myself.. haiz..

its only less then three weeks more to go.. drats.. arghh..