forgot to post.. baby said my new blog skin was nice! haa.. i bet its coz of the color ba.. it used to b dull and black.. haa.. thanx baby..

one thing good to start with.. im early!! wasnt late for work! yea.. gotta thank baby for sending mi to work..

today was not quite packed..but its already considered super busy for mi..got so much to learn.. the places where things can be found.. the way of ordering.. haa.. but it was definitely fun.. a totally different environment from my previous outlet.. seem to forgot all the ropes and tactics of working in sushi tei le.. gonna see jw this sunday evening.. haa..

gotta depend on myself for not being late tml le.. and jus when i started to hav a part time.. i got replies from my agent.. and UOB jus asked mi down for an interview tml.. i knew tt its gonna come all one shot.. i jus hate decisions ..

was trying to keep cool and hope that baby u would slowly stop flaring up at mi.. was so close to shaking off my tears till u asked why i cry.. but im sorry for making silly predictions bout wat im planning to do in future.. i was jus.. haiz.. but thanx for waking mi up and telling mi how difficult it is to be.. ... huggies..

starting work this wed.. hope to bump into jw soon.. and give her a surprise.. haa.. haiz.. its been a long time.. hope its still manageable there ba..

i miss all my frens.. been stuck home for quite awhile le.. hmm..

how hav u been sis.. dun work so hard till u've got no time for urself.. and aini ger.. lets try to make some time to meet up and catch up okies.. jw haa.. sure bump into u one of these days.. yiling ger.. remember our promise our goal okies..and when wanna bring mi out for nite supper.. haa.. fana darlin.. got any job yet so far?? and monica jie.. when go tpy walk walk.. and jeremy kor.. ord liaoz.. haa.. when bring mi out for a ride.. haa.. shiok liao lo.. my dear going in soon ah.. sobzsobz.. and ryan do take care of urself while shooting and serving ns and working part time ah.. haa..

lastly.. my dear.. though i hope to have more time wif u too.. more sincerely.. i hope u would stay home and spend more time wif ur mama and family.. time is nv enuff.. haiz.. haa.. pls take care of urself.. slp more regularly okies baby.. though i know theres ur frens and bros.. haa.. i hope to still see more of u while we can.. okies?? i've been missing u baby.. so much.. love u..

* i need to correct my msg last nite.. not jus on ur part but i hope we can help each other to get our day and nite correct.

theres so many movies i wanna watch.. most of them out in may.. hopefully then, i can get to see dear more often le.. :)
*Mirrormask
*Hostel
*Black Night
*Reincarnation
*Inside Man
*Mission Impossible 3
*When A Stranger Calls
*The Da Vinci Code

rite.. my connection is down for the meantime.. coz we missed the bills for two months.. and im blogging illegally now.. haa..

since the day i went out wif yiling. she's been helping mi alot wif the seraching of jobs.. and kept introducing mi lots.. jus dun understand why she can get so many list of them while i cant.. realyl thanked her for all the help..

jus the other nite i was on the phone wif dear.. and i can tell u.. its rare to hav him callin in the middle of the nite and chat.. we chatted long into the nite.. though there was a little misunderstanding.. and mi messing up the conversation even more.. i know that on the whole, dear cared for mi.. that explains why he desperately wans mi to understand his point of view.. but i fali to let him understand that all i did was actually to try make myself available for him at this point of time.. even though at the end of the day i still did not meet him.. im still happie coz i know im there if he needs mi or wat.. so that's partly the reason why i kept rejecting the offers to work.. im sorry baby.. i understand where u're coming from okies..

jus this morning.. my ex manager called mi up to ask if i still available for a job.. he asked mi to go back to help him out at his outlet.. haa.. so happie but im still considering.. hope i can make my decision fast..

last nite went out to meet danny.. intention was to go find dear and hav dinner wif him de.. but baby had his already.. so we're left alone.. we ended dinning at burger king.. den we went to the fountain of wealth and chill.. listened to the songs there and chat wif him.. made a song dedication too! haa.. my first time.. but baby couldnt hear.. hmm.. anyway.. hope to get a job soon.. for the sake of money and also still make myself available for baby..

take care all frens.. esp to my poly mates.. heard theres gonna b a chalet coming soon.. :)

damn happie.. wee..

today was a day not wasted at all.. got to meet up wif my good old fren.. yiling ger.. spent time catching up alot.. haa.. vice versa and not jus mi talking all the way.. haa.. met her after her last day of work today for her part time.. den we went down to tampines to sign up at the agencies for yet another assignment.. hope they will reply soon.. coz i really 'liong' le..haa a new word from her.. haa.. hope this time can get to work wif her together again.. btw the guy who attended to us at the agency was yiling's agent.. din know the agents there were all handsome and pretty.. yea all of them.. prety and handsome.. haa.. and so was ours.. haa..

fana ger and sis called and msg mi too while i was on the way to the agencies.. haa.. glad to hear from them.. and sis im sorry i cant accompany u down there.. but its gonna be a painful experience lei.. but u will look nice la.. haa.. next time u bring mi down ba.. okies.. haa.. save up first.. haa.. we mus save up den can go shopping soon!!

and celine.. thanx for introducing mi the HR assistant job.. haa.. i willl get back to u as soon as i hav any other news okies.. thanx.. and take care in the meantime..

hmm.. we walk alot today.. century square and tampines mall..and to plaza sing haa.. den came across the self recording company.. haa.. so damn excited lo.. the package was so attractive.. i really wanna do so.. if only i hav the ability to do so.. i would put my name down for an appointment le.. haa.. i wish.. i wanna do big.. strike it rich..dan hav lots of money.. i wan to be able to buy clothes and new shoes and all without having to look at the price tags!! haa.. possible ma...hope im not jus dreaming.. but den again.. money isnt everything either.. haiz.. yiling.. we will try to go back there and do recording together okies.. promise.. :) oh gawd.. 4songs for the price of 100 bucks.. plus pro song editing, cd cover design, plus menu list.. hmm.. i wanna go.. argh..
baby wans to support mi there too.. but haiz.. dunno lei..
its jus a long awaited dream that i've nv spoken to anyone about.. hoping to get an album of my very own.. hmmmm... i wan a sugar daddy..

anyway.. wanna start working and save up for alot of things le.. hmm..
i miss u baby.. been real long since we last went out for a walk le.. hmm.. miss you.. so much.. hope u enjoyed today too..

went ubin last friday.. finally get to see baby.. danny and di, di's mum came along too.. wif two other frens.. so a total of 7 of us.. reached ubin n it started to drizzle and we were greeted with a big crowd.. totally lost interest in cycling le.. the crowd and the people, the rain.. and the slippery roads making mi feel irritated.. and my bike isnt suitable either.. so i dropped the idea of cycling altogether.. decided to head back to stay wif auntie and her two frens.. so dear and the rest accompanied mi back.. im such a pain.. i know.

stayed at the seafood centre while waiting for the rest.. and mean while enjoyed talking wif his mum and we even got to know another 'angmoh' couple there too.. throughout the whole conversation, i was full of respect and admiration for her knowledge and the interest in so many languages.. she is one woman of a career and mother.. but she has a strong persistent character as well.. haa.. everyone has got their bad sides.. besides i was asked to help out at her company in the meantime.. will get to know her better.. but will consider first..

had dinner at di's place.. dinner was tempting and lip-smackin.. i guess its prolly coz i haven had home cooked meals for long le ba.. it was jus great.. i helped myself to the dishes alot.. hee.. den decided to stay out that nite.. yea coz of a silly call.. watever..

went dear's place stay over wif our self created queen-sized bed.. we slept like babies.. haa..
baby cooked mi meefen soup.. my favourite.. and had beancurd too.. i still hungwee so had more biscuits.. den watched vcd till we knocked off to dreamland.. haa..

dunno why but i gotta say i felt especially good that nite.. all the little actions done.. i felt more of dear.. in a way i feel more loved and pampered.. from the way he placed the tissue box for my ease at nite.. to tucking mi in.. and cooking for mi.. jus feel good.. thank you baby.. im glad that its one day i din do anything stewpit to spoilt any of our mood.. :)

i love you..

baby jus droped by wif cunxi too..

nite..

sometimes.. life is just..
u cant make someone love u..
u can only be someone whu can be loved..
the rest is up to the person to realise ur worth..

baby.. somehow i feel you're still awake.. are u?? its 4.27am le.. still fidgeting in bed.. so got up to blog an entry.. din wan to msg u or i might wake u up.. wat are u doing baby??

woke up ard 3pm and went downstairs to meet danny kor.. pei mi hav lunch.. we went to the place i long wanted to bring dear there to eat de.. but nv seem to hav the chance to do so.. weird hor?

chat wif joe on msn jus now.. got to know more bout him.. and his past relationship.. this thing between bros and gfs.. how to chose between them?? its jus like how often i used to ask dear.. if one day both mi and his mum fall into the sea.. whu will he save first?? how do u make a decision between those?? weight them on who's more important? its gonna be unfair.. and its really sad if we as gf keep insisting that they make a choice between the both..

anyways.. gotta thank eileen for giving mi the agencies contact.. im gonna cal them up to ask bout the part time job.. hope i really get to do some work.. getting kinda sick and tired of nowadays le.. meeting jw tml evening.. hope yiling is doing fine.. and sis dun over work.. monica jie found job le ma?? miss all my sch mates too.. hope all's doing fine..

lastly, i miss u baby.. i dun feel good.. dun know why..

baby jus went home.. sent baby downstairs.. dunno why but i've been feeling down for the whole day alr.. slpt ard 4am last nite.. yea once i hit the bed.. i fall into dreamland rite away.. tts how tired i am.. woke up this afternoon.. to see baby looking at mi.. feels good.. wish i can wake up everyday this way.. we had coco crunch and later baby cooked meefen tang for mi.. jus like it so much.. but its different eating it at my place compared to his room.. watch tv and more tv.. tts all we do the whole day.. though i love to jus slack and do nothing.. but somehow i jus feel as the hrs passed.. i seem to be in a bad mood.. wanna apologise for my attitude behaviour temper or mood.. or watever u cal it.. haiz..

well yesterday.. woke up waay early to meet yiling ger.. went to attend the GB gers enrolment service..met up wif peiyun diana and agnes.. these few of us are the left overs.. haa.. met ms amy and ms tay too.. heard alot of things and updated myself bout the gers too.. anyway.. its been a real long time since i last went back to GB le..

after the whole thing.. we were hungwee so head to our old place for tom yum fried fish noodles.. haa.. den went to walk walk lo.. caught up wif yiling too.. and was really taken aback by her situation.. or plight maybe.. ger i hope you dun feel so caught up in time to come.. and do take care of yourself and dun over work too.. and thanx for sharing.. really feel honoured.. coz its been really long since we last met le.. and im jus glad that nothing has changed much..
i appreciate your trust for mi as much as u do likewise.. take care ger.. keep in touch again okies.. oh ya.. do rem to intro mi to ur wonderful instructor kkz.. haa..

left yiling at the platform and went to look for dear.. had dinner wif him and pei him till after work.. den bought sushi.. haa.. our timing was so rite.. the moment we reached the bottom the announcement came on saying all sushi is half priced!! so we bought some home.. tts how baby stayed over..

baby lets not take advantage of staying over till the extend where u will feel sian coming over okies.. dun wish for that day to come.. but its true that you've been staying out almost every other day loh.. i bet your mum would be so sad not to be able to see you staying home accompanying her.. baby.. i do like u over definitely.. but i hope we do not do it too often till u feel sian.. understand ma?? it would not be better off without u at my place.. i would definitely feel worser today.. im sorry.. i love you..

got home early this morning @ 830am.. yawnz..
went out late last nite pubbing at our cosy bar again.. had martel.. and btw the food there is goood too.. cheesy fries and fried chicken wings.. no neeed any chillies for tasting.. its good enuff alone! haa.. den went over to di's place and all of us went crazy doing our very own 'ba sian guo hai' 'da zhong xiao' and many more.. haa.. shall upload the pics sooon.. haa.. barely slpt the previous nite.. so i got up in time to wake bro up for his bb.. together we took a cab back home..

had real good time together wif them.. really happie for this period of time.. though im not really doing anything at this period of time.. im actually taking this opportunity to meet up wif my old frens again ba.. recently jus the other day i met up wif monica jie.. haa.. and glad to know that i still got u to back mi up in times of need.. thanx jie.. and sis.. after alot of procrastinating during our sch times huh?! hee.. we got our deal of time together. yea but i know its not enuff.. not forgetting yiling ger.. im gonna meet up wif her tml le.. and of coz my jiaren danny cunxi and baby.. frens are really great siblings that God had forgotten to give us.. :)

since the day i got to know of dear's nsf enlistment arrived, i've been feeling more emo.. more dependent.. more soft.. and vulnerable.. haa.. is it all the pre-effect? dunno but i jus dun wanna keep counting down to it.. haiz.. baby..

and before i sign off to lalaland.. here's wat i jus did for 'Who's your type?'......

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[rite at the back of my head.. ah di.. watever ur mum has in hands for u.. i believe its for the sake of ur future too.. really think through wat u hav in mind and share it wif ur mum okies.. she will listen.. if u use the soft approach.. dun let her see ur stubborn side.. we all hope for the better for u.. huggies..]

im exhausted.. not from the time i spent wif sis over the past one day.. but the fact that i got stuck outside my home.. coz i forgot to bring my keys out along with mi.. and due to desperate need of toilet.. i reached for a hanger from grandma's room window and twisted it long enuff to hook out the keys from my room window.. thank God my window isnt locked.. if not i would've pee-ed outside my home.. altogether i took almost half hr outside my house.. others might think im a robber or wat.. haa..

went out yesterday in the afternoon to meet sis.. after accompanying granny to the ntuc to get some groceries.. since i was running late again.. pushed time back half hr meeting her.. den bath and rushed out.. but instead of swimming we were caught stuck in J8 walking ard.. coz of the rain.. argh!! and so.. we went window shopping.. haa.. yea while still wearing our swim suit inside.. and den.. we tot of another nasty idea.. and so.. we head to the highest floor.. and den.. we end up buying tics to two movies show.. wahahha.. not one but two.. haa.. "Ultravoilet" and "The Hills Have Eyes".. their good.. hee.. especially the latter.. its not really a horror show but puts u in suspense and excitement.. and gets u real violent.. till a certain extent mi and sis was even enjoying the hacking of monsters body that part.. haa.. gruesome.. and definitely not for the faint hearted. haa.. ok enuff advertising for the show.. haa..

den we went to grad a bite at ThaiExpress.. there the service so so .. food also ok la.. but the dessert there was good.. haa.. and after ordering our food den we realise our show will be on in like fifteen minutes.. so bein us silly gers.. we rushed through our hot food and even managed to still chat along the way.. haa.. den rushed in for our show.. and den.. being the silly us.. we still tot the swimming complex is open.. so we rushed there but to our dismay.. the guy actually close the door and shut the gates in front of us! @#$^*! and den.. haiz.. decided to stay over her place loh.. since i din wanna go home as yet..

but i think it was the wrong day to stay out ba.. i din feel good rite after dad's call.. and sis ask wats wrong when she came in so i guess she prolly knew something was wrong.. watched vcd den chat a little den off to lala land for sis.. guess i was left on the wrong note to myself to slp.. no matter how i stop myself from fidgetting and opening my eyes.. i jus couldnt get to slp.. its jus not the time for mi to slp yet.. its onli 1230am!! and still so far away from my slping time.. den thoughts wondered.. den i teared.. coz its as though.. i felt all the possibilities of lost and lonliness all in one nite.. on the thought that if dear was already in army.. den i missed dear..so badly i teared.. all the way.. till bout 2 plus before i finally msg dear.. phone gave up on mi rite after i sent the msg.. sad.. but however.. i still felt that dear did reply to my msg.. and so it jus help to make mi feel better.. thanx baby!

this morning woke up ard the same timing as sis.. washed up den head off to yck pool.. haa.. we finally had our swim..haa..

can say i had great fun when wif sis.. but theres jus one thing bugging mi.. and thats the money matter.. its not mi to be taking treats from ppl all the time.. same as her.. coz i noe we both like to treat our frens.. but everything i eat i spent on was on her yesterday.. and for that i really feel bad.. think of the past.. when i was the one to help support her a little here and there.. haa.. wat goes ard comes ard.. really grateful for her.. but maybe its jus that im not used to the fact that i can no longer treat le ba.. anyway.. thanx sis..

baby.. i missed u.. so so much..

couldnt get to slp and its in wee hours of the nite.. wrote dear an email.. he's over at malaysia rite now.. hope he returns home to Singapore soon..

went to sch friday morning at 1030am to meet Mr Lee for my testimonial.. so happie he got it done for mi.. also got to realise tt im the first one whu actually approach him for the testimonial.. seem so kisau.. haa.. watever.. den took a train back to bishan to get carrot cake.. den to dear's place.. hee.. my baby still sleeping when i arrived.. so his mom opened door for mi.. haa.. thanx..

woke baby up and fed him carrot cake.. haa.. without him brushing his teeth yet.. haa.. his gonna kill mi if he come across this entry.. haa.. den slacked.. watch tv and i eventually slept ard afternoon.. coz i actually only slept ard 6am in the morning the previous nite.. had two dreams and one of which was baby out to a football match wif someone whom i felt envy and jealousy for.. haa.. shall not spill a word.. shhhh... haa..

had dinner and bought meefen so i can cook at home.. den bought icecreams for his jiaren too at his provision shop near his home there.... haa.. we made a trip to kor place ard 1030pm.. and watch two vcds before baby sent mi home.. thanx sweetie.. u always volunteered to give mi rides home whether im outside or from sch or anywhere.. and i really appreciate that.. this i know not all boyfrens do.. hee.. time for mi to show off alittle.. haa.. baby will also wilingly bring mi to supper if im hungwee even in the middle of the nite.. haa.. all these and despite the laziness in him.. haa.. my baby...

baby.. come back fast k.. take care..