new chapter...

procrastinated long enuff.. before i decided to write a little..

many things had happened and there's so much to write about.. rite now as im typing.. many things going thru my mind.. my past.. and wats to happen in jus a short six to seven months down the road.. nobody knows yea??

got sick recently.. thats when i got so emotionally unstable without realising it.. tot of da.. my old motherly da.. missed her cooking, company and her face.. time seem to fly when one's busy.. but to me its still as though da jus left yesterday.. tt din stop me from keepin in contact wif her.. i still did msg her and tried to meet up and stuff.. but i only have myself to blame for being too preoccupied wif my things that ended us not being able to meet..

i miss going to her for advices.. walking the dog wif her and doing our weekly shopping.. i can only wish for the better for her health and all..

life can be really unpredictable at times.. and it can just catch u off guard when u least expect it.. i hope to share wif all my frens.. to enjoy living life as it is.. den regret in the future.. and not take advantage of chances in life..

got a 5 days mc from the hosp.. to rest well at home.. and probably think things through abit thoroughly.. now that things hav not yet come to a confirmation, i can only say im sorry to those who loved and cared for mi.. but i hav dear to stay wif me through it all.. and that's wat keeps mi going for now i guess.. thank you baby dear.. for enlightening mi and making me see things at a different point of view.. though all may be very supportive of us but i cant forgive myself.. doing this at ur expense of freedom.. i hope u understand.. but also it gives mi new hope as i can finally experience the way u've nv treated me before.. thank you baby..

thank you for spending time and money at the expense of bringing me fun.. thank you for being my best fren, trying to always make my day when im at my worst.. my everything else basically.. i love you baby..