tired out..

hmm.. forgt wad i did on wednesday again.. hahaz.. blurz mi..

thursdae..26/05
had pe after sch on thursday.. went to the stadium run five rounds.. hee.. one way for mi to let it out.. missed going back to dancin.. anyway.. meet up wif bro at the salon and had a hair cut.. trimmed my hair.. went to buy dinner den went to ntuc to buy some snacks.. went home empty handed.. coz bro carried everything.. including my bag.. haha.. went home feelin so out drained out.. slept quite early i remembered..

fridae..27/05
woke up realising im workin tt evening.. so i naturally feel so moody liaoz.. packed my bag.. intended to wear shirt for tt day's sharing time.. but lazy wear shirt.. so put on a spag and a cardigan.. haha.. looked in the mirror and i felt i looked quite mature actually.. except for my height la.. was told to help out in the TEP star awards ceremony.. hee.. so i gladly went.. in hope of redeeming myself for ms ho.. haha.. only she and mi will know**.. everyone got a name list and so i looked through mine.. and saw his name and her name.. and their seats.. felt rather happie instead.. tt they can sit together so will hav a chance to talk.. rite wat the fuck am i thinkin.. wasnt i suppose to be angry or jealous or confused or disappointed.. no!! i wasnt.. jus a little uncomfortable.. till i saw the both of them seated and started talkin.. anywayz.. went in the auditorium and saw serene too.. she was the second one whu realised i cut my hair.. or rather had my hair trimmed.. irene was the first one though..
den soon after dear came le.. i was finaly the one whu ushered him over to the seat next to her.. how nice.. but aniwaez.. i hope things are finally finally okies.. so i dunn need to keep thinking tt whether are they finally talkin and tt i can presume tt they are okie liaoz.. i dun wan bother liaoz.. leave it.. full stop..cmon their frens.. jus frens!!
worked till ten pm..
waited for mum to come back.. brought to her bedroom the birthday cake.. and sang her birthday song.. den give her present.. haa.. happie birthday to aini's mama too.. hee.. our mama birthday the same!! din realise it through this two years man.. how incredible..

saturdae.. 28/05
worked 10-10.30.. was early!! hee... actually planned to watch catch madagascar.. but i was too tired.. though i regretted the minute i said i dun feel like watching..
this is the very first time i said i was tired and was literally complaining to dear over the phone.. dear sure feel that it was nothing new.. but i've never complained.. and i never liked it either.. but couldnt help it this time round..
in the evening.. ard nine twenty.. tts the time my companion would always walk into the restaurant.. was so happie to see him.. i know him as Imanaka san.. he teaches japanese in various community chest.. looked very young and strong for his age at 70.. i liked him alot.. since the very beginning when i started working at sushi tei.. he is one customer i made fren with.. and really enjoyed talkin wif him.. many times i would jus stand at his favourite counter and talk wif him.. he once said tt he would always rush down jus so he could see mi.. hee..
think i jus reminds him of his three other daughters ba.. poor him.. all alone in singapore... while his other daughters married and migrated overseas.. his wife had rested long time ago le.. hmm.. really thankful for knowing a fren like him.. still keep the owl head bamboo structure he gave mi as a souvenier from japan.. yea.. he bought it for mi de.. so cute rite.. haha..

sundae..29/05
worked 12-5pm today.. woke up saw dear's msg.. as early as 6am inthe morning.. as expected.. dear slpt late.. very sad to hear tt though.. coz dear was busy with other things while i rested in bed.. but wat to do.. wats done is done.. dunno how many more days he gonna have to sleep early to make up for the long hours he missed..

did many stewpid things today at work.. was blur.. my mind was on dear.. all the time.. couldnt concentrate.. hope dear miss this blog entry..
i made wrong orders.. write the orders wrongly.. cook called 'o negai' and i jus stare blankly.. din react.. got customer standing at the entrance.. and i din usher either.. jus stand there and stone.. customer wan bill and i took out the order chit instead.. they wan order.. and i took out the bill chit instead.. mixed up the drink orders at the tea counter.. and i jus simply cock up today.. tt victor had to ask mi if im okie.. coz i seemed so tired to him.. yea.. guess i mus be jus tired ba..

went to buy june's present first before going down to meet dear at suntec.. saw ammar on the way.. friendly guy.. hee.. wonder hows things wif him and aini.. anyway.. sped up from city hall station to carrefour.. to wait there.. should not hav run so hard.. think i pulled a muscle while running from pe.. felt the strain even while workin on sat liaoz.. everything seem to be on track again once i meet dear.. mood swings disappeared.. went to BK.. after awhile only den we went different directions le.. dear went back to work while i head home.. time:11.25 and dear still not home yet.. haiz.. bz ba..
**he jus called while i was bout to msg him.. hmm.. at home le.. jus feel so moody again.. haiz..

hmm.. bored..

hee.. showing off my very first pic uploading.. coz always got problem de.. haha mi IT idiot ma..jus opy and paste aso alwaes gotprob..butbutbut jw here help mi can liaoz.. hee..
shall go home blog more and upload more pics.. hee..

bored to death.. not really tired though slp ard four plus in the morning.. do project wif dear.. reminds mi of the time when i do d & t project with him during secondary sch times.. hee.. missed those days.. as the saying goes.. good things always come to an end.. so... i shall jus enjoy the moments now.. while dear's still so very sweet and nice.. before the good times run out again..

though jus less than three short hours of sleep.. i was feelin rather pleased.. hee.. coz dear was beside mi.. hee.. rather hard to wake up though.. keep wanting to go back to sleep.. so annoying!! haa.. see dear so tired aso..

dear jus accompanied mi for lunch.. my baby at home le.. now should be resting le ba.. hmm.. dunno whether dear going for training not ma.. hope he dun go ba.. so tired le.. not coz of any reasons hor.. hee.. hmm.. jus now at mac.. saw c*****.. was with jw and celine.. hmm.. ponders**anyway.. ..shal go back to my stopover soon.. since daniel says i leave gerald alone over there.. coz.. guess wat.. vash and sean went home!!!!!!!! argh!!!!haha.. shall put another pic up.. hee..


hee.. one more..

yay.. haha..
tataz..
misa ya dear..

slpslpslp...

fridae..20/05

had presentation on fridae.. did job posting.. din manage to meet mr fuan.. bz as usual.. kinda shagged after presentation.. gonna go for class dinner after sch.. met up wif daniel and jesslin and aini and jw celine and gerald.. together we went down to ps.. called dear.. i missed dear.. these few days.. seems like heaven to mi.. really wan it to last.. hee.. dear say why cant go for movies wif him instead of dining wif my classmates.. haha.. baby.. i know u're a gentleman de.. u wun stop mi from meeting my frens de.. hee.. so we had pasta mania at ps..dear was at ps surprisingly too.. hee.. caught a glimpse of him.. hee.. after dinner.. we went to istana park.. took lotsa shots.. like crazy.. haha.. miss our class guys though.. as none of them was there.. except for daniel.. haiz.. stewpid gerald lah.. went off wif johan for movies.. star wars summore.. ._.'" haha.. daddy jus leave karen there.. hmm.. went off to coffee bean there.. sit sit talk talk.. got free drinks lei.. hee.. thanks to celine and irene wor..

missed fana the most.. throughout the whole gathering.. both mi and aini we were missin fana.. missed her to tears.. haiz cant possibly go out wif her.. very difficult lah.. hmm.. take care ya ger..

after we said goodbye i headed off to meridien.. hee.. happie to see sis!! kor ah xi and yasi they all.. most imptly is dear will be there shorly too.. sat chat.. felt like going to the loo.. as we walked the corridors... dear came up from the other direction.. hee.. nice timing?? hee.. lots to share wif sis.. imissed her.. tt when she said missed mi too.. couldnt help it but hugged her so tight.. den i felt so comfortable.. like i felt i miss this close feelin for quite a while.. den i let lose.. i jus cried on her shoulders.. i felt so so comfortable.. jus wish i could hug and cry it all out on her shoulders .. yasi tried to stop mi from cryin.. lucky i managed to stop though.. coz its not easy once i start..

went over to sit wif dear.. he sang!! like in so long time le.. he sang.. and those lyrics in the song.. seemed to be wat i felt or rather wat we had felt in the most recent.. again i teared.. dear din see though.. lucky mi.. not i gonna spoil again..

long day uhh..

sat ..21/05

worked 12 - 5pm.. was late.. by one min.. shit .. after work.. went off walkin home.. din realise i walked all the way from far east to meridien there liaoz.. so took train from sommerset.. a little wet from the rain.. den again i din realise its the wrong side i took till i reach city hall.. tot of lookin dear up.. acc dear awhile since i knock of le.. dear might be bored workin till midnight.. but i wear the three quarter jeans he dun like.. so think its better if i go home instead.. haha.. finally reached home after two hours.. haiz.. blur mi..

sun.. 22/05

worked.. june was late for the first time ever.. she worked 630pm.. reached ard 6.50pm.. knew somethin not rite le.. later she came out changed.. stood in the pantry there and cried.. she cried like she had kept so much inside her.. den she couldnt even catch her breath.. i din wanna probe on her le.. but i wish she had shared wif mi.. so after work.. she told mi bout her story.. ger i'll keep u in my prayers okies.. pls take care k..all the more u needa be stronger now.. coz u need to take care of each other.. i went off to meet dear and the rest at ps.. for midnight movie.. jus suddenly so glad tt dear and all other jiaren and frens are fine and blessed wif many things we often take for granted..

mondae..23/05
slept till two plus in the noon.. woke up hungry.. ate some.. watched some tv.. missed dear.. went to bath kino played wif him.. den called dear.. mum said he still slpin.. PIG man.. haha.. den igo bath first loh.. later dear called.. say he coming over le.. ask mi ready le ma.. hee.. i am ready le.. so after the call i changed up... took a bottle of yakult.. den went downstairs to wait.. haha.. feel really abit stewpit leh.. thinkin back.. coz i waited for like forty mins later before he came.. when i could hav gone upstairs to wait for dear.. but i wanna wait for him there ma.. and since im out le so i stay there loh.. still tot dear met wif some mishap or wat shit.. or go take pics first without mi.. haiz.. silly aint i?? haha..

dear.. i feel more of you now.. really.. feels very nice.. i told myself le.. i dun wanna ask bout wats bothering u anymore if i ask and u dun wish to say.. i shall not bother bout ur stuff anymore.. if it makes u feel uncomfortable.. number one is coz i know u dun like ppl askin alot.. number two.. think i shall jus leave it to u.. if u feel like sharing wif mi im more den happie to listen dear.. but no point mi askin only to make u feel more lost.. irritated everytime.. from now.. i shall jus be concern wif only u and mi.. im happie when wif u.. its all tt matters rite.. when wif mi.. i hope u feel happie too.. jus dunlet mi hav the chance to ponder okies..

i'll see u baby.. love u alwaes.. Nites..

tired..

mondae.. 16/05
dear came my place ard twelve.. to see mi.. watched tv awhile before took mi to bed and wanted to put mi to sleep.. i said i din wanna slp though i was real tired..

dear asked mi if i felt he loved mi more.. i felt he was different though.. not tt he loved mi more.. jus tt he came to look mi up slightly more.. and tt jus set mi thinkin.. was it purely u dear.. or coz u see mi in such a bad state durin this period of time so u wanna do somethin jus to help cheer mi up.. and when u think im better already.. u start to get mood swings and shut urself up again?! and den i'd be left alone to think stewpid things all over again?? if tts the case i feel i wanna be in a bad mood forever.. coz tts when i know i hav ur FULL attention.. baby.. do u know wat im thinkin how im feelin why im behavin this way.. i wish i had got a clue too....

we sat on my bed and talked.. he asked, why ger wats troublin u.. i said, i dunno either.. i was only thinkin of the things tt could hav happened.. bad things tt could hav happen.. thinkin dear is always hav a bad day coz of mi.. dear always dun tell mi things.. everytime dear's in a bad mood he jus shuts himself up.. everytime i wanna get things to turn out fine.. it ended the other way round.. i said i hate seeing dear feel frustrated and agitated all over.. feelin tired and restless.. even especially when he's wif mi... like im no longer anythin to him..
dear sigh.. tellin mi things to reassure mi.. to make mi feel comfortable.. tt i was his only moral support and all.. tt was truely awesome for mi.. its the very very first time i ever heard anything so sweet from my dearest.. its so dream come true kinda feelin tt i get..i shall keep it all to myself.. see dear off the door soon after..

din cry.. but i teared to sleep though.. coz i jus couldnt help it again.. ..

jus before dear left.. dear told mi he was serious in all tt he said.. and not jus for show.. dun take it lightly..

tuesday..17/05
went home after sch.. wanted to go down meet dear if not meetin jw.. to buy some food over and jus enjoy it wif dear.. but den dear called mi up.. and he sounded so happie.. asked mi out for dinner.. but it jus din went well.. i spoil the whole conversation.. on the way home.. i cried.. and cried.. and felt soo lost again.. called jw.. couldnt get thru.. called serene.. couldnt get thru either.. tot of him.. and my heart ached so much.. coz im thinkin again.. bout those.. but when i got home.. i was fine already.. jus felt my head so heavy i needa lie down.. msg dear and kinda sort things out.. den went to slp soon after.. but i kept wakin up in the middle of the nite.. wat gd use of slpin early..

wednesdae..18/05
woke up tellin myself i needa stop.. make an effort to stop.. erase tt part of the memory..once and for all.. or dear would go crazy and leave mi for real.. had been sort of seein myself in my parents when they quarrel or in an arguement.. will tt be my future??

dear came to my place..and for the first time in so long.. soo soo long.. i felt things are gettin better.. chatted wif dear on msn.. saw dear's room.. miss havin dinner at his place.. i miss his mum too.. nv miss mine though.. how funny..

soon dear came.. had some snacks.. den dear changed up to his pyjamas haha.. his very own pyjamas at my place.. haha.. den started to study.. but my baby.. a baby is always a baby.. baby mus entertain first den can listen to u de.. haha.. so... hhaha.. den soon i left dear alone in the room..

brought in his cup of water.. to realise dear laffin .. den mumbling to himself kind.. haa.. very cute see dear tryin to fake he din see the present i got for him.. ahh.. doesnt matter much la.. it was meant for him anywayz.. hope dear liked it.. no chance to get it changed le.. together we changed the wallet.. i hope watever dear do wherever he is.. he feels there's a part of mi wif mi.. am i too selfish to wan him to think of mi.. haha.. dear hugged mi tight.. tt hug i will remember alwaes.. coz i feel us really huggin.. those are the kind i cal a hug.. sumtimes i really wish i stand 1.70cm or taller.. but too bad i hav to face reality..

stayed up till ard three.. den we went to bed.. i sneakily climbed into his under covers.. tucked him nicely.. den lie on his shoulders.. all was quiet and dark.. den i kissed him on the cheek.. and.. he said thanks gerl.. i immediately opened my eyes wide.. dear was exceptionally emotion and sweet.. but felt rather weird dear said thanks though.. he made mi feel all was worth it.. really..

thursdae..19/05
woke up this mornin to feel so good.. coz dear was ard.. but dearest bro had to spoil my every single morning.. and dear had to see the way i wake up every mornin.. so pls every one out there.. pls appreciate the light rays every mornin tt enters ur room.. and to the start of a new day.. coz mine will never be peaceful.. haha.. but wat to do.. my little bro ma.. haiz.. we were early.. even before eight we were sittin in the living room eatin cornflakes.. im sorry dear.. alwaes no breakfast for u..

im jus so happie the whole of today.. and even sean and gerald saw mi a little different today.. all think i crazy.. haha.. jus kept talkin and laffin.. coz everything went well.. actually is because.. dear is in a good mood.. his mood very much affects mi.. so long as he's happy i'll be ..

my intuition tells mi its not gonna be a good weather for pe somehow.. and since i din feel like havin pe.. i din bring any attire and true enuff it started raining when it was close to five..

dear jus called.. said he wasnt feelin good.. dun feel good.. dun wanna tell mi wats wrong.. jus dun feel good.. wanna throw it out.. wanna let it out wanna scold somebody.. he jus wanna thrash it.. can already hear the irritation over the phone loh..

here it is agian dear.. i hope to be of help to u.. but i cant when i dun noe wats goin through ur mind.. take u in my position.. can u understand.. when u jus put mi down like tt.. i dun mind.. can understand when u feel restless moody.. u jus feel it isnt going ur way.. but EVERY single time its the same.. make mi feel real lousy eh.. leave it..

promised to rest early.. i hope u sleep well tonight dear.. rest well.. watch ur diet.. i dun wan ur BP rising.. love u .. always..

reticent..

time's now 1.49am.. dear's in my room tryin to study for his retest tml.. CRM.. hope watever he reads stays in his head..

tryin to recall the short happenings recently.. last wednesdae went out wif jw.. din plan where to go.. walkwalk.. wanted to acc her to get some stuff or shop shop for her dear david de.. but end up i was the one spending away.. haa till jw had to say mi.. den we finally bought something for ourselves.. enjoyed myself tt day..

last friday the thirteen.. dear came to fetch mi after work.. we went to eat.. prata house near his place.. den we went off home.. nearing bishan.. we went through this road where there's a bump.. jus coz i was only ONLY sayin i wanna go through the bump again.. dear actually went pass my house.. made a u-turn and we went through the bump again.. its so late and dear's so tired le.. ...

sat.. went to work early.. dear workin at ps.. dear went of earlier..

sundae.. dear came to look for mi.. after work.. we met and went for supper again.. went to whampoa... with jimmy.. dear bought mi an anklet.. but does dear know wat it means to give it to mi?? showed off to vash they all.. hee..

mondae.. had the worries all over mi again.. cant seem to think straight again.. had a talk wif dear when he decided to come look mi up for awhile.. tired.. shall blog again.. wanna keep dear company..

FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN

fridae.. 13/05

geez.. another week had passed.. another tiring week...
did nothing much on monday..came to sch and realise the website of hmanlink is still down.. look up the T.O. to check it up.. after a short while.. it was back and alive again..

basically forgotten wat i did on tuesday.. blurrrrr......

wednesdae..11/05

after sch.. no where to go.. decided to head to orchard.. to accompany my dear jw.. go shop shop for her baby david bday present.. little did i know i was the one spending thriftlessly.. for dear.. hee.. anyway.. bought two new tee.. and a shorts.. wif jw.. hee.. we had a fun time tryin to bargain wif tt lady.. made her called up her boss in the end.. haha.. but but!! its only to our disappointment.. haha.. shall keep it to ourselves.. anyway.. jw say mi le.. only know how to keep buyin for him.. wait later he scold mi instead ah..
lost my ezlink pass.. think next time jw not goin out wif mi le.. hee.. she said each time we go out together i sure lost things.. she dun say i dun realise it too.. haha.. lost ring.. den almost lost my hp the other time.. in jus a short trip back to sch in taxi.. and now?! my pass.. haha.. but i enjoy goin out wif ya ger.. its my carelessness.. not u or wat lah.. siao.. haha..

dear went to ma place.. for facial.. sad.. din get to go ..

thursdae..12/05

sad day.. it was my first day for PE lessons.. kena dissed off by the fuckin teacher.. he.. suck!! he simply piss mi off.. already had a tiring day.. tryin to rush and get the job posting pages up.. rite after entering those fuck up data into the database.. couldnt even complete in time.. later need to rush off for pe still..

time was 5.30.. yea both mi and gerald.. we're late.. for half an hr.. but.. i dun think there's a need for mi to receive such fuckin attitude.. from some fuckin pe teacher.. had no idea at all.. he could jus come over to ask or scold.. but not SHOUT in front of the whole fuckin group of students alright.. and still say we pay him to teahc yet we come so late.. damn!!! we were held back alright.. not as if we wanna be late.. though im a late queen.. but i was rather enthu bout running alrite!! fuck man.. jus shit..and i was god damn feelin unwell loh.. i wasnt realising it till gerald fanned mi askin mi to cool down.. tt i was actually swearin all the way.. up till now..

haa.. anyway had a good run.. wif jw.. not till i din manage to meet up wif aini..as she took a cab home le.. all coz i din manage to call her on time.. haiz.. sad.. sad day.. shall meet her up when we're free the next time.. bought some food wif bro den went home..

fridae..13/05

finally did my part on the job posting.. thinkin why i did took such a long time to finish postin jobs online?? i had the whole stack of jobs since i started attachment.. coz apparently.. i forgot to ask those jobs from them.. and apparently they forgot bout it too..

tired.. had lunch wif jiawei.. din meet him since he came over to my place on tuesday nite.. celebrated yasi's bday.. missed him alrite.. he did try to touch on his tutorial.. haa.. serene had a good laff bout it..

actually.. had been feelin rather irritating.. rather dun-noe-hw-to-say.. pissed at almost everylittle thing.. tired.. of everything.. jus really wanna lie back and rest.. maybe sleep.. till ever.. not wakin up.. coz im tired.. im jus tired.. really very tired.. need a break?? i dun really know wat i need now.. rite now.. i jus wanna rest..

dear.. if u happen to read this.. i dun mean to show u any atittude.. or plan to diss u off in anyway.. but im afraid.. i might be showin my oldself.. my old u-think-i-care?! attitude.. tt's not good.. absolutely not good.. maybe.. it is all tt's piled up inside of mi?? eruptin?? i dunno..
dear realised it though.. at least dear's able to sense it.. keep seeing the same adeline.. i bet dear wan a change.. i am.. but i hope.. i DO NOT change till so much so tt it cost mi my dear.. im tired of myself too.. sometimes being too good a girl and listening to everyone can be irritating.. give mi time.. i'll change.. i wanna change i dun wan to be treated like for granted.. i wan to be appreciated.. i think im rather scary myself.. once start laffin.. i will carry on on stop.. once start cryin.. i will wept non stop.. i need to rest i think.. haha.. tired.. TIRED.. shall go carry on my puzzle fighter again..

ciaoz..

mama's day..

its a sunday.. its mama's day.. happie mother's day to all.. all mummys-to-be, all mothers.. grandmothers.. or daydreamin to be one.. hee..

took a week break from work.. this whole week.. mc on tue and wed den went to sch on thurs and fri only..

thursdae 05/05..
thurs after sch.. went to collect cake before going to dear's place for dinner..we went to a restaurant near his place there.. dear keep takin food for mi.. askin mi to help myself.. no need paiseh.. hee.. so sweet.. later went home cut cake.. glad dear mama like the flavor.. not too sweet or chocolatey.. hmm.. soon we went off home.. reach my place not long den we decided to find cunxi.. reached home ard eleven..

fridae 06/05..
my baby finally went to sch.. meet him in college bookstore while buying his book.. mi was wif a fren.. a guy fren.. ths fren had been the topic of my frens.. vash and gerald and sean and even my bpos group all say think this guy fren like mi and stuff.. haha.. stewpid la.. hee.. dear say mi ji hong.. haha.. watever.. told dear to go for his IPP briefing later in the afternoon.. he din believed there was one at first though..silly guy.. anyway.. dear came to fetch mi after sch.. we went to catch the movie house of wax.. anyone into gruesome and sick thriller.. this is it.. not too bad a show.. hee.. but throughout the whole show.. dear was the loudest.. coughing almost every other five mins.. jus glad dear took the time when he could jus rest at home.. met danny for awhile den return home le.. dear fetched mi to doorstep.. den decided to stay the niTe... slept quite early.. through the nite.. hope dear slept well.. am keepin dear in my prayers..

while on the way home.. i tot bout it unintentionally again.. couldnt help it.. thought bout things like if it werent for dear.. wat will i be now.. wat will happen if i've no more my baby liaoz.. i've even make myself a nuisance to his frens.. made enemies even.. i dunno.. sumtimes i will think to myself.. if am i really the one for dear.. wat does he think of mi really.. or am i really totally out of his league.. am i totaly opposite of wat he wants.. am i or am i not.. i hope dear.. the longer we are together.. the closer we get and not hide more things from each other..if not den its meaningless baby..

saturdae 07/05..
woke up slightly earlier wanted to step out.. to get some lunch for dear.. but it was too late.. a cal came den dear woke up.. really feel guilty.. everytime no lunch or breakfast for dear.. since not much time left.. dear hurried off le.. forgot his hp.. waited for his call to say he comin over to get his phone.. his face so so tired.. he asked if there was any cal.. den he went off le.. later.. msg serene yasi.. they both busy.. so msg jw.. thinkin how is she.. if she free to acc mi ma.. den we met up loh.. happie i met up wif her.. hope she's fine ba.. we went to find my dear.. bought him plain mineral water.. haha.. dear say he jus came back from jihonging.. watever!! .. went off le.. coz see dear so busy..

see dear rested so many days le.. but i feel he dun seem to have enuff rest though.. its still not enuff.. dear too tired le.. dear if u wanna take a break.. tel mi too k.. we go hav a break together kkz.. or if u wanna b alone for some time in case i irritate u or wat.. tell mi too.. if theres anythin i can do to help u especially now.. let mi know okies.. love u my wang zi..

glad dear okie wif his good fren le.. they msging le.. ....

went walk walk wif jw.. sat at burger king.. talk talk.. later since she din feel like going home.. we both went to meridien wif sis and danny they all.. dear even turn up later to fetch mi home.. felt bad.. din say much coz its mi fault.. should hav stayed home.. so dear wun need to waste his energy and effort to come fetch mi..

sundae 08/05..
dear rested at home.. din go work.. baby.. recover soon okies.. take care.. feel his tired physically and mentally.. or could somethin else be botherin him.. beats mi..

rest well dear.. drink plenty..

another day of mc..

made good use of my two days mc.. gonna return to sch tml..

woke up ard 9 plus in the morning.. msg dear.. to wish him well and gd mornin.. (he mus be mumblin in his heart.. 'wats so gd bout mornin.. ' hahah) den i went online and checked my results.. tried many times before i can finally view my curent sem results.. to my dismay.. i failed the one i expected to fail.. software engineering practices.. haiz.. haiz.. thou shall not nag and brag and complain.. its all duly my own fault.. tt i did not do well.. hope i can pass the sup on the followin tuesdae.. wish mi luck peeps.. hee.. but glad though tat my good frens did wel.. jw and fana and aini.. hee.. den chatted wif esther all mornin.. she was sharin wif mi bout her boiboi.. actually now.. i jus realise.. tt.. in a relationship.. wats most imp isnt really trust.. it should b love.. if there had no love den there wun be trust.. den there wun be no understandin and forgiving of the same kind.. if u love someone.. it should pass all doubts and fears.. anyway.. shall not carry on else its gonna rock many babies to sleep.. hee..

went to far east in the early afternoon.. to get my shoes for tml coz i'll b havin PE lessons.. haa.. PE lessons every thursdae.. for an hr.. i miss sec sch especially wif sis.. haiz.. hmm.. so while on the way there mum quarreled wif dad.. they always seem to hav problems communicating.. im afraid im actually starin at my own future.. will i become like tt in future?? den back home.. dad let it out.. i feel for him.. i really do.. but it seems something is holdin mi back from talkin to my mum or help them out.. too much a bother.. i dun see the need either.. its always coz of little things.. haiz.. reached home.. talked wif esther a lil while den i go bath le.. before takin bus to dear place..

we went to buy a full face helmet.. one for each.. hee.. i feel it look very fierce lei.. abit ll too.. hee.. first time wearin on a full face.. never did i expect myself to even be riding on a bike wats more a fierce helmet.. haha.. i siao liaoz.. dear jus ask mi go slp le.. i like it when he says ger we go slp together.. =) hee..

shall blog finish fast.. after which we went to fill our tummies wif some porridge.. hee.. dear call all i like one.. but dun dare eat much.. especially rice or porridge-like food.. still cant erase the rice-roach incident.. can never forget.. haiz.. we went to look ard for cakes for dear's mummy birthday.. its tml.. and dear also ask mi over dinner together wif them.. later came home le.. think its a fruitful day.. we bought dear's helmet.. and ordered his ma's cake.. hope everything goes well.. and dear get well soon okies..

nite my dear wang zi..

holidaes..

jus came back from late supper wif dear.. time:02:41am..din expect i'll even meet dearest toNite.. felt gd hugging dearest.. i feel different toNite.. not to mention my sunburn but its the feelin i get when wif him today.. a slight difference..

i miss you baby..take care on ur way home now..

had my holidaes over in a short week.. of coz not enuff time to meet my sis.. my darling yiling.. aini or jw they all.. attachment start le.. im attached to BPOS.. together wif Vash and Gerald and Sean..but all in diff department.. im in humanlink student services.. hmm.. basically help students find part time suitable jobs loh.. liaise wif outside companies.. update and publish ads.. ya loh.. tts bout it.. got to noe some new frens.. okie lah.. quite boring.. but time can pass lah.. hope dear doin fine wif his studies too..

remembered dear went over to mum's place for facial.. on a wednesday.. think its on 27/4.. later he came back to sch to fetch mi to orchard.. took quite long before we decided to head back to bishan.. for tori bento set meals..

dear came my place stayed the nite on sat.. woke up early next day fetch mi to work.. tt caused him a headache.. i assumed.. not enuff sleep..

now dear fall sick le.. went to see doc and got a two days mc.. i too did not attend sch today.. took a two days mc as well.. yesterdae went wild wild wet.. got all sunburned..had fun though.. went wif colleagues at sushi tei.. june and i got burnt most..hee.. til at nite..had real problem tryin to slp.. feel the pain when rubbed against the blanket or pillows.. haiz.. already fallin sick i felt myself.. but i still went out played.. so caught a slight fever in the end.. hmm..

sumtimes.. i feel things are always meant to be.. like its all properly planned and prepared.. for mi to specially realize before it is being removed manually..jus hope i can keep it down deep.. where no one will realise or even have the chance to dig it out.. even i myself might forget as time pass.. * its okie if others dun understand.. im jus thrashin things out.. dun wanna bother bout explaining further.. i hope.. in the meantime.. no bad things to happen le.. and i hope all this good times are not jus temporary.. do hope things will last.. told dearest.. i din wan him to treat mi so nice.. some might be havin question marks.. like?!?!?! but dear is already very sweet le.. has been a very understandin and much much more sensitive carin guy le..actually all this while too.. but each time dearest and i are so soo fine.. things will go wrong the very next min.. tt i jus hope sumtimes dear jus dun treat mi so good.. but den again.. whu wun wan to be pampered like a princess.. haiz.. i'll jus leave all to God's hand..

goodNite baby.. i manage to finish blogging till u called.. we shall go slp together okies.. Nite my dear wang zi.. gongzhu will miss u.. take care.. drink plenty..

wonderin was it my imagination or was it real wat i saw on our way back home jus now.. ** hmm...