went for chalet early this week.. monday till wed.. had fun wif my frens.. made a new gd fren too.. guo liang.. hee.. his birthday on 5th nov.. one day older den mi.. hee.. his a gd fren to make.. muz thank jasper.. anyway.. chatted wif guoliang in the early mornin.. coz i couldnt slp well.. woke up early coz of gastric.. hee.. it was really fun havin him ard.. anyway.. throughout the whole chalet.. i had brought dear over too.. he came after his work.. i bet his tired out.. but i appreciate his effort.. really.. though we had a little squabble the second nite.. dear made frens wif few of my frens there.. hee.. cunxi came along too.. hee.. all in all.. i had fun.. but to an extend.. there was some thing somewhere.. somewat disturbed mi..

maybe all things happen too fast or maybe my eyes are seeing things too slowly.. haha if u know wat i mean.. firstly.. celine thanz for being there throughout the chalet from the beginning till we board the bus home.. thank jiawen for taking care of mi too.. and i bet u did enjoy ur sleep there huh?? hee.. thanz yugi and guoliang for accompanying mi to get my medicine wor.. touched.. hee.. guo liang for teaching mi to play mj too.. haha.. to yugi and celine.. we had a fun time going to the jacuzi and the steam bath.. wahaha we made jasper waited for us to come out. wahahha.. thank joey for having fun together wif us.. nice knowing u one step closer.. jasper.. thank you for telling mi more bout urself.. dewen and ivan for coming down and hav fun wif us too.. and to vash.. im disappointed wif u.. really.. i dunno wat to say.. anywayz hope u did enjoy urself..

end of chalet.. took bus 53 to baby place.. hee.. spent the day wif him.. yea!! missed baby so much.. i bet the rest would be home snoring away.. but we went out to meet dear's boss and den baby got mi a watch too.. too expensive and precious le.. i really love it.. a hundred percent.. if not for tt reason.. i would hav liked it for a hundred and one percent.. omg.. haiz.. watever.. thank you baby.. stayed over the second nite as well.. hee.. it rained..

went to work on fri.. everythings back to normal.. see frens preparin clothes for D&D.. haha.. im a little lazy and less enthu bout it suddenly.. tired.. today din go work.. woke up wif a back ache.. si ma.. its so painful till u cant even bend ur back to put on ur underwear!! wth.. wats more sit on the toilet bowl.. haiz.. sad day.. haha.. i had dear's company though.. its here in my heart.. hee.. i mus be nuts.. baby haven cal mi yet.. its 2.04am le.. haiz.. baby where are u.. i wan u home to rest early.. why its so hard for u to listen.. baby can u pls listen?? i love u baby.. come home early.. take care..

baby i feel we are like close as before.. am i rite sayin this?? or is it jus mi again.. i hope to remian this way forever.. i hope we share more too.. im really thankful for this period u're giving mi.. love you..

workin 10am tml.. nites..

** sis.. i missed you.. sch startin soon.. send mi a copy of ur timetable yea?? we'll keep a day free to meet again every week jus like when in yr1 sem1 time hao ma.. take good care of urself.. love ya..

gd mornin all.. as early as my clocks says.. its 8.08am.. not tt i wake up early.. its tat i hav not touched my bed and hugged my pillows yet.. yea.. i couldnt slp.. but rather tired though..

end up lookin through some pics and deleting some old docs away.. com slowed down alot.. needa clear alot rubbish in my com le.. pics especially.. uploaded the pics i took on my baby's birthday.. and managed to send them to ah xi and sis..

its been quite awhile since i last wrote.. had been workin since last week thursday till this week mon.. straight five days... tiring.. yet fun.. get to be wif my sst gers.. getting kinda sad and anxious at the same time.. yea sushi tei far east outlet closing down le.. all whu are regular customers there.. quickly come down a few more times okie.. before u run out of opportunity to eat there.. i will miss the environment in there.. and workin wif the ppl there too.. customers.. especially imanaka san.. its been close to 6 weeks since i last saw him.. haiz.. missed him though..

wun get the chance to bring dear there to eat le.. not much time we've got since his on attachment still.. suddenly remembered zhen yi.. she left sst quite long ago le.. went over to fine dining at boat quey there.. asked mi along but i was still considering.. i remembered those times.. we were working together.. den there was once.. her bf came over to specially order yasai miso soup for her.. knowing it was her break time.. he paid and quickly left.. giving her a surprised.. haha.. still remember to shock face on her.. btw his called davindrance.. long name huh?! haha.. yea.. he's half a chinese and indian.. but he looked 100percent chinese loh..wadever.. at times he would sit in at sushi tei, order a glass of orange juice and read newspaper.. but everyone knows he's there jus to accompany zhenyi..speaking of which.. dear has never seen mi at work.. haha.. except jus for that one time i remember..when he came down to fetch mi after work.. as we are suppose to catch a movie.. i rem baby was feelin rather unwell den.. hmm.. so far.. yiling ger.. yasi.. danny kor.. cunxi.. jingwen came before.. ohya and esther.. haha.. and alvin too.. gonna miss far east sst.. btw im going for sst D&D.. hee.. yea!! baby agrees too.. heard i was going to be nominated for miss sushi tei.. i hope not.. embarassed myself onli.. haha.. be it june or annabelle.. i think beter den mi.. hah.. lookin forward.. hee..

hmm.. i jus watched two movies jus now.. oh i mean yesterday..haha.. the skeleton key and the 40yr old virgin.. if u would like to sit in for a gd laff.. the latter would be a gd one.. baby came to pick mi up after he sent his laopo bike for inspection.. hee.. we went j8 walk walk..saw cai hua.. told him things i felt maybe i shouldnt.. since its so long ago.. it looks as though im tryin to make them fall out as frens.. no intentions baby.. i jus wanna let u know.. coz i felt it was rather on impulse on her part.. wadever.. hee.. anyway.. we had teppan yaki at food junction.. hee.. food was okie.. everythin was okie.. of cos la.. my baby wif mi.. haha.. i feel baby gave mi the lead.. we had teppan yaki instead of dear's cartel.. we watched two movies instead of walkin ard town.. which was dear's intention.. hee.. machum i queen lei.. haha.. i am queen.. queen lyn.. wahhah..i had a good time wif my baby.. thank you baby.. its been a long time since i had a good time with you.. really.. i feel good.. dunno wats the difference but it felt real nice..

tot i was going to ruin dear's mood.. as i screwed things up the nite before.. i had advertly hurt alvin's feelins too.. din know how to help the situation.. so i shut him up.. haiz.. so not mi.. but it was getting on dear's nerves.. but that incident also helped us to get closer.. though i made him cry and made us lost our slp.. im sorry baby.. but thank you for still believing in mi.. really.. thank god we kissed and made up.. really..

we rested our eyes for an hr plus and dear had to wake up for his medical check up.. so i waited for him at his place.. feel so warm.. erm.. like my home yet so unfamiliar kind but its a sweet and infamiliar kind if u know wat i mean.. hmm.. his mum and dad was home.. talked wif his mum after i got up ard one.. haa.. she asked if is baby still havin alot gers coming after him.. haha.. and said.. he has a bad temper.. and its not gonna help if it goes on.. well im glad its gettin better though.. we talked bout serene too.. and about him goin on army.. den baby's mum also mentioned its rather difficult havin to please everyone in the family de..not an easy task.. take the chrysanthemum for example.. my baby likes it sweet.. while his sis doesnt.. haha.. hmm.. food for thoughts.. haha.. anyway.. i like the feelin of waiting for him at home to return home.. hee.. enuff said..

hmm.. quite amazing at how much u can get from a gal who din get any rest for the whole nite.. haha.. i hope baby.. will get enuff rest and get up early.. hav his lunch den go to work.. baby.. please be more normal can.. haha.. u really becoming more and more abnormal lei.. wan a healthy baby.. hao ma.. love you.. good nites..

**hav been thinkin through.. wat my other frens hav told mi before.. am i really considered stewpit at times .. but i feel its not easy being a stewpit gal too.. if one understands.. it pays off.. eventually.. i know it will..

nothin much

its been long since i last blogged.. shall take the next five mins to quickly recap the ups and downs recently..

it was dear's twentieth birthday..happiest birthday to u darl.. all ya wished will come true okies.. haha.. and grow up le.. pls be a good boi.. hee.. stay handsome big and strong and stay my baby always okie.. i love u darl..

many things hav happen.. recently met up wif an old fren.. esther.. a close fren when we were still back in gb.. missed those days ma?? haha.. she got a new baby to take good care of.. hee.. happy for her la.. and also got to know a new fren there.. alvin.. nice knowing u.. tld u many times le.. u really look like my godbro.. hee.. take care dude..

anyways.. i have to thank kor.. sis and ah xi for comin down to cut cake wif dear.. kor thanx so much for accompanying mi the whole day lei.. i bet its tiring..u specially took off from camp jus to pei mi for his bday.. and thanks for listening too.. i will try to heed ur advice.. one can forgive.. but one cant forget easily.. muz remember that..

okies.. jus came back from dear's place today.. shall go get ready for work le.. i'll be working till sun.. den going on chalet on mon.. yeayea!! Joey!! celine!! miss ya gerls.. take care okies.. meet up soon.hee.. and Vash!! jiawen!! haha.. Jasper!! haha..

oh well.. time flies ppl.. till then take care..
take care baby.. i miss you..

huggies..

its the end of my sch term's attachment.. this coming week would mark the beginning of my holiday.. bout a month of holiday..

jus when i tot things would slowly improve.. it's jus the opposite.. jus when i tot i hav got the understanding and trust of a close one.. it jus hav to be the other way round.. dunno how to do and wat to do.. anymore.. im really breathless.. speechless.. deep inside its really tiring to hav everyone on ur side..

enuff is enuff..

fri on the last day of my attachment.. went to hav dinner @chompchomp.. together wif the nine of us who are going for chalet.. si da mei nu and the four masketeers plus one more dewen.. tts mi celine yugi and joey.. vash jasper ivan jiawen and dewen.. after dinner at chompchomp.. we went to this place called the ambaralle's pub or something.. nice little cosy place to stay ard and chat.. we had fun chating and playin stewpit games.. had a drink or two.. baby's fine wif it..

sat went to work.. after so long.. felt i din go work for months.. haha.. worked full shift.. and i finally saw imanaka san.. missed him so so much.. stil tot wat happen to him.. so so glad to see him again.. and as usual i brought him his cold sake.. chatted awhile only.. that day was trash.. super busy.. first time i busy till very pek chek.. got scolded or rather given sacarstic remarks.. shall not bother talkin bout it le..

feelin so bad.. so down.. baby called.. so we decided to go catch a movie.. we were hesitating coz baby felt i was reluctant.. catch'the dukes of hazzard' wif korkor.. we saw baby's fren desmond too.. and my old sick classmate.. eee yer.. disgusting... mentioning him only gimme goosebumps le..

sun i was late for work.. first time ever so late.. start work at ten.. and i woke up only at ten.. how nice.. reached ard 1030 ba.. haha.. after work went to paragon sushi tei.. wif beibei and june and xinxian.. to celebrate angie's bday.. happie birthday ger.. 21st birthday le.. freedom le ger!! im awaiting mine.. stay pretty okies.. love ya!!

all the way till now as im blogging.. im still so heart broken..
is everything slowly dying on mi soon..

baby im glad i still hav u..
love you..
goodnight..
ur little princess.. awaits her freedom and destiny..