my baby is back.. thank god i finally see my baby safe and all is fine today.. other den the wobbly legs almost giving way, jus worried for his sore throat. still cant seem to forget the first look of you at my doorstep. like finally.. my baby look so smart and cute.. haa botak baby..

baby took a ride from a fren's and came over to my place straight... lucky i din left home early to wait for him at pasir ris.. haa.. den we took a cab to his place.. spent the rest of the day admiring the finest of his little spiky hair.. haa.. i jus love moving my hands from the back of his head to the front..

ah guan came over.. david came too.. later evening serene and danny came over too.. haa.. sis was so sweet.. took vids for mi as she felt that was the least she could do since i wasnt allowed to take vids of baby.. haa.. sis kept saying ' ur baby very cute la.. haa.. was admiring him jus now.. haa.. anwiae im glad he is fine.. though very shack... =D proud of him... but super happie for you.. coz i know u wait this time very long le!!!'

i felt good.. coz sis totally spoke from my heart.. jus like the words i was about to say.. haa.. im proud of baby too!! more hectic days to come baby.. shall put up pics soon.. if i really got the mood.. haa..

gonna rest early le.. baby slping now!! haa.. nite all..

wth.. wat the hell! there u go wif ur mood swings again..ok fine. im fine wif it.. my fault again.. its not the first time either.. i said 'watever' coz one word describes it all..

i dun even know wat happen and was jus trying to know wat went wrong.. wat did i do or wat did i even say.. coz i realise as we were talking.. ur response ur attitude changed.. all the one word answer when i ask u questions..fine.. arent u rude? u could hav jus said' jie im not in a good mood.. please stop talking..' or ' im pissed wif u for watever reasons. so jus leave mi alone' i will! damn it.. i still got the heart to ask u wat happened my dear boy.. and this is wat i get.. fine again.. and one more things..please shut ur fucking mouth on the ah lian here and there.. i know wat i am and wat im not.. and im not trying to contradict myself wif the 'shut ur fucking mouth' .. i meant to say, please STOP all ur nonsense shit of ah lian here and there.. we've been communicating wif these all the time.. den explain to mi why the sudden change and names for mi?!?! if im an ah lian.. den does that makes u an ah beng? if u're tryin to change mi and stop mi from swearing all the time and helpin mi instead. u can do it in another manner.. and not by calling names. esp ah lian.. wth.. and after everything.. u go about saying sorry.. oh gawd.. tell mi wat am i suppose to do.. to learn from mistakes when i dun see any? to jus shut up and let u on ur way? im sorry too anyway.. if theres's anywhere im at fault.. i've always wanted u to see my point of view.. tts all..

it all started when i asked if u're free this fri. i could hav settle well at the 'see how things go'.. but u hav to leave the house jus coz u cant stand mi and need a fresh air outside? or wat? i ask if u're hungry and u said 'i dunno' nice said. wel done. ok fine. yea. u can change ur mind on sleeping early or not.. to go hav prata and watch soccer or not. and jus dun give a shit about ur promise to ur jie.. ok fine! really.. do watever pleases u.. (on a nice tone, jus in case u say i wanna pick a fight again)pls jus pls dun make mi feel like giving up on u..

i've no intentions on starting an entry like that.. but bah.. watever.. people can really affect people.. haiz.. pls let mi see my baby soon.. soon.. i've got things planned already..
its nothing really exciting.. there's no where i wan u to pei mi go. or bring mi out to play.. i only wanna spend quality time wif u.. tts all tt matters to mi.. baby.. i miss you.. and im proud of u today.. wif ur 4km road march wif all ur heavy stuff to carry.. its gonna be ur ippt.. test tml.. jiayou ok.. fail nvm.. do ur best can le.. i still love u.. looking forward to thurs..

and bro.. i still love u too.. haiz.. pls dun show mi any attitude anymore.. i really dun think i deserve this shit.. and i really dun think u are these kinda shit i see at times.. please.. argh!

graduation day today was rather bored.. and simple.. attended today's ceremony and had some photo taking sessions.. not in the rite mood to post up pics.. din get to see most of my mates.. aini ger! jw! celine and irene.. but still thank my mom for attending it too la.. bah~

Five surprising reasons men are happy in a relationship
by Bonnie Yuill

Dont be fooled by the male ego.
Men look for more in a relationship than an attractive women who will cook him a good meal and wash his clothes every once in a while. what he really needs is your admiration.

He needs to communicate with you.
A lot of men need to be in a relationship more than women do. Surprising? Not really, when youthink about it. Women usually have close relationships with their friends. They talk about health problems until they feel better. But men dont. As Helen Fielding's character, Bridget Jones, says 'women have emotions and men have football.' Men are competitive and so, in general, they rarely share their emotions or problems with each other, as they think it makes them look too weak. When he needs to open up and talk about his feelings, guess who he eventually shows his vulerable side to? You!

He wants to be your hero.
Knowing that he can make someone else happy makes him feel good inside, because he has the power to change things. And what bloke doesnt secretly want power of some sort? At least if he cant always be top dog at work, he can be a star at home. Instinctively, he aspires to be Spider-man or Superman to be your hero, to be able to make things right: to be appreciated, to be someone's kinght in shining armour. So when you are disappointed or unhappy, he feels responsible. What matters is that you are happy and then he's got one less thing to worry about. Strange but true.

He strives to make you happy.
The number one reason men leaves relationships is because they feel as though they cant meet their partner's needs. This makes them feel inadequate, and it makes them feel as though there's no way their partner can feel respect for them. For women, communication seems to be the top priority in keeping the relationship going but, quite honestly, men dont understand this constant need to talk about things over and over.

For men, the relationship is a success if they feel respected and if they make their partner happy. This is why a new conquest is exactly that as he feels as though he is in charge as he is once again someone's knight in shining armour.

If you resent him because you feel overworked and under-appreciated, stop doing so much as you are probably destroying your relationship! he doesnt want to feel responsible for you rushing around, worn into the carpet, and most men really dun notice whether the housework has been done or not. What they want is respect and appreciation. 'All we really want from women,' a (male) friend recently told me, 'is for you to smile at us.' (And probably one other thing, if he thought about it for longer than a millisecond.)

Sex makes him feel loved.
Sex has the same effect on men as romance does on women. So the reverse is also true: no sex = no love, no approval, no acknowledgement. They get the same sad, unloved feeling that you get when you dont get flowers, your partner looks at other women or ignores you.

You are his(secret) reason for living.
He needs you because you inspire him to do better as he has someone to do things for, goals to reach, a reason to go out and conquer the world. What's the point of being disgustingly rich and powerful if there's no one to share it with? What he needs is the gift of you.

Quoted from a fren's...

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

bro.. pls get to sleep u pig head asshole!! yea.. i had some fun playing ard wif my bro.. had some wrestling.. and slapping.. and scolding and shouting.. haa.. its crazy.. anyway.. bro jus reminded mi bout something i wanted to blog initially.. a few days back.. one day after bro's birthday.. it was this ger's birthday.. and so.. out of courtesy.. bro bought a present for this ger as she bought one for him too.. met at her void deck.. and passed the present to her.. haa.. and guess wat? my bro gave away his first hug to a ger!! other den mi la.. wahahha.. tt was some funny and new experience altogether.. haa.. its funny to see that though.. haa.. his good fren was there too.. and after the ger had initiated for my bro to send her up back home.. he actually declined!! how stewpit was that? haa.. we later realised that my bro was freaking out le.. haa.. bah.. its his first experience and well.. i feel he still do okie la.. at least he din really go that far and do anything that might allow him to spoil the nite and embarass himself..haa..

cute guy.. haa.. anyway stayed home all day and slacked.. went out for dinner wif bro at nite..

hmm.. baby called thrice today.. oh my god.. his voice. is gone! baby is now the IC for his section and also the timer.. and is also the soon-to-be platoon incharge.. haiz.. my baby.. pls dun spring so fast.. haiz.. i knew this was coming.. my baby sure kena aim for this and that one! damn.. i jus hope he will be able to handle all responsibility and on top of that take care of himself.. heartache to hear his voice almost gone.. geez.. baby asked if would i still wan him today.. bah... only make mi tear.. stewpit guy.. hmm..its gonna be the fifth day tml le.. jiayou dear.. nine more days!! ha baby made mi laff at him today.. he din know that when he booked out he would be in smart fall.. and would not be able to hug or hold hands.. still say he cant wait to hug.. haa.. silly baby..

baby..

other than take care.. i only hav take good care for u..
i love you goodnight..

3rd day..

woke up to baby's call today once again.. he's done wif lunch fast and tou tou called mi to chat.. though its jus a short 1.26mins.. im satisfied..

was at nee soon east community centre and celebrating my good fren june's birthday..actual birthday is on the 14th.. went there early and helped out in the setting up of balloons and stuff.. and slowly one by one came.. her parents were friendly.. in fact too friendly.. haa.. shall keep the details to myself.. they actually booked the whole karaoke hall from 630pm till closing which is ard 1230am.. haa.. sang a few songs and soon realise im missing baby.. missing his calls and all.. looked at my phone again and again.. din expect myself to miss his calls five times! haiz. im sorry baby..

anyway baby called later and we chat till lights out.. my baby ran 2km today.. nonstop! tts a good sign.. my baby is still fine. haa.. baby is being appointed as IC for quite a few things including being incharge of his whole section.. theres pros and cons to this.. but i know my baby will always excel in his performance and to their expectations de.. jiayou baby.. but pls pls take care of urself too.. tts top priority.. understood? haa..

yesterday had dinner wif danny and yasi.. danny bought mi this dolphin soft toy at action city.. haa.. and said he even gonna claim it back from dear when he's out.. haa.. he's been real nice taking care of mi.. thanx kor..

anyway bumped into alfie and shunjie and elgene while on the way home too.. been awhile..

i wanna go tanning.. badminton.. swimming.. anyone??
sis? shall we? aini ger.. when ur day off..? and jw ger.. i wanna book u on ur next off too.. time to catch up le..i read ur post and i hope to lend a listening ear okies.. and jie.. keep in touch on ur job posting and stuff okies.. and lastly.. to yiling ger.. hope u dun miss this.. i can sympathise wif u but i know i definitely cannot say i truely understand how u feel.. coz i know u're the extreme case wif ur boy... and im really sorry.. but like wat u said to mi.. its not as if he's gonna stay in there for the rest of his life.. and so long as u both know u both are together.. its all that matters.. lets jus let our boys get it over and done wif okies.. we can only hope for the better.. like u said.. it doesnt make any much of a difference to u anymore.. cheer up ger.. and miss ya all loads!!!!

miss ya dear..
be home soon..

baby's big day...

hey peeps.. guess wat.. my baby finally got enlisted into BMTC sch 2 today at tekong le.. haa..
in like a blink of an eye.. baby is already serving the nation le.. yea!! baby.. fan shi dou yao ren okie.. everything will be fine.. keep a positive thinking too.. i know u can de.. :)

yesterday, baby was still a little sick.. but he went to take his advance theory.. and he passed..
shall not mention any sad happenings..baby went for lion dance.. meanwhile later in the evening baby ride his fren's sp over and took mi for a ride downstairs before he return to sch.. wee!! its rather fast compared to the old phantom.. but its not my type la.. i realise i would rather prefer superfour.. or jus his good old phantom ba.. haa.. took my bro for a ride too.. but in the carpark only.. haa..

anyways i spent the nite over at his place.. my so called last nite wif him.. haa.. kor came over too.. and witnessed us reading off the checklist and packing his bag.. slpt ard 2am.. all of us too anxious for him le.. including his mum too..

woke up in the morning at 6am.. and got ready.. went to pasir ris white sands to hav our breakfast there wif dear and his family.. hee..jingjie later appeared out of nowhere! haa.. wat a fren.. it was meant to be a surprise for him.. he heong inside ah.. later secretly took a ticket from another family which din use up theirs.. lucky loh..

guess wat it read from the notice board at the shuttle bus area?? it states M company pls report here... Mohawk!! if for those whu went in before, would know that its well known for its aggresiveness and siaoness in its training and expectations ba.. especially Ninja and Mohawk company.. haiz.. im crossing my fingers for u baby.. took a shuttle bus over and den a ferry to tekong.. hmm seem like a long yet short ride over.. and before we know it.. we got seperated le.. had a mini bus ride in the training grounds there.. saw the bunks and toilets.. the leisure room air-conditioned wif ping-pong and pool table and tv.. saw their SOC too.. standard obstacle course.. they call it the ns men's playground lei.. the swimming pool and other training grounds la..

later had a mini presentation done by the officers and sergeants there.. and tts where this guy in full camo stood as a model for us.. haa.. in full combat and rifle too.. haa.. i went up to try and lift the bag.. and realise its not really tt heavy la.. haa.. for a ger like mi to say this.. i think it shouldnt be a prob for the rest of the guys in there. haa..

later we went to the canteen to wait while baby and the rest got ready wif their oath taking ceremony.. and meanwhile.. i spotted a cute guy.. really cute one.. told his elder sis and she even agreed wif mi loh.. haa.. mi mi yan jus like wang xi's.. sharp distinct nose wif a kissing lips.. real cutie.. haa.. anyway.. we headed to the auditorium and sat through the whole thing la.. btw jingjie fall asleep listening to the presentation and video clips man!.. he even snored!!

den its lunch time together.. sadly i din touch my rice or chicken chop a single bit.. im still fulled up from the breakfast meal.. den after lunch its time to really say bye bye le.. baby hugged all and thanked them for coming to see him off.. den baby turned to mi and kissed mi on my lips without a word.. i'll always remember that soft look on his face.. and mi there still trying hard to hold back my tears.. haa.. yea! i did it baby.. i managed to see u off happily.. am i a good ger or wat.. haa.. but hell la.. after he turned his back and report to his platoon.. i was already almost drowning myself wif my own tears le.. wahahha.. kiddin la.. i manage to hold till i see his parents off.. haa..

baby.. baby.. im gonna see a baby boy change into a young man.. haa.. i cant wait for ur return.. pls be alright and take good care.. i wanna touch ur baby botak head.. haa.. i love u dear dear..

shall wait for ur cal tonite okies baby???

btw.. i jus heard a bike sound from downstairs.. and .. tots jus ran wild and.... tears.. argh..
im fine la baby.. :)
i will be..