it definitely isnt a gd day..
rite from the very beginning..
got off the wrong side of bed..
got a bad hair day and was late for work..

get home in time to throw a temper at my family..
its my bad.. i know..
im lost and stressed..
work's not going anywhere good..
and im not gainin much liking anywhere either..
i keep forgetting things..
and it sucks..
like fuck..

i dun like to hav myself in ppl's mouth or in ppl's stares..
i dun like to involve others if i jus cant finish my own work..
but eventually i got others involved by making a whole team return home late today..
as late as ten..
i made a few mistakes last week and ppl are clearing the shits for mi today..
and i dun like it.. !

im in a foul mood and i dun wish to talk to anyone or do anything..
i dun wan to go to work i dun wan to go anywhere..
i dn wan to see mommy and daddy..
mommy's mad and daddy breaks his promise..

if only..
if only i could..
i wish i would..
i miss you dear.. dearly..
take care there.. and i hope u're not having sucha bad time like wats it over here..

be home soon..


sis.. thank you.. (u might not know for wat.. but thanx..)
jie.. thanx for meeting on sat.. still got ur pearl.?
yiling ger.. thanx for having mi over at ur place.. rem its my honour to help u.. cya soon..
jw ger.. thankiew so so much for the pleasant meeting last min.. its really sweet.. a meeting once inawhile.. our promise okie?


baby. let mi see u in dreamland tonite??

its a bright and sunny day..
yet its jus a dark rainy and cloudy day for mi..

its still fresh in my head, the dream i made..
i dreamt of baby and we were having a good time indeed..
apparently things went bad but we din fall out..
its jus coz someone else stepped into the picture.. and i gave way..
its ok to be stewpit in my dreams.. but i wun know how would it be in real life..

its been my two weeks working at citibank already..
and im beginning to adapt and settle in pretty well..
started to handle transactions yesterday and today.. things are still fine so far..
as i've yet to experience difficult case..
i made my fist call to the treasury and dealers over at taiwan to quote rates for clients..
geez.. its scary.. their chinese! omg..

speaking of which.. im mentally prepared of wats ahead of my rite now.. its jus work and work and work.. i hope to try and find some time for myself and organise my thoughts for coming weeks..

baby baby.. pls be alright and sleep well at nite..
jus wanna assure u i only hav u..
do not worry and be fine okies baby..
lets promise each other to work hard together ok..
promised..
besides im beginning to adapt and accept this kinda life..
work on weekdays and love on weekends..
but tt leaves mi wif no time for my frens and my own.. haa..
watever..
im considered lucky to hav things to do in life.. and things to look forward to..
finally i jus wanna say i love u my dearest..
take care..

my first dae...

its been long and before i know it.. its been two days baby booked in le.. this time round with much hesitation and reluntance.. baby's tired.. too drained i guess.. aint booking out suppose to be a time to hav ample rest and replenish for the next weeks' training schedule? and den my baby always asking wat are the plans to go out.. haiz.. poor baby.. we'll balance our outing in time to come okies.. but meanwhile i need u to get enuff rest..

went back to sch to get acadamic transcript and diploma for dear.. and its a different feeling once i step into the sch though.. miss my schling days..

anyway... today today.. is my first day at work.. hurray!! haa.. but it wasnt really good la.. i practically sit around and do nothing staring at wat others are doing.. jus like a boss.. haa.. since they haven got mi a password and login for a computer.. so im basically bored.. yea.. but judging by the loads of transactions coming in from time to time.. and the speed of those processors.. i dunno how long am i gonna take to reach their standards.. im all ready to learn.. pls dun keep mi waiting too long.. haa..

first days at work are never nice.. im glad mine is over.. but i still got to get over the first week.. den is considered well settled ba.. we'll see.. till then.. take care frens.. and baby.. i miss you.. dearly..