its dearies mama birthday today.. i went home to get changed after work and brought the present and two mangoes for dear along wif mi.. had a hard time trying to flag for a taxi.. finally reached dear's place an glad i wasnt the last one their waiting for afterall..

we had dinner at the no signboard seafood restaurant.. crabs was good.. the deep fried cereal prawn was good too.. i tasted the fried cereal only though.. during the dinner.. i felt i was getting quite an attention.. which i din feel really good.. coz it was suppose to be his mama's day not mine.. we were talking about jobs and salaries and stuff.. yea.. and both his jie were so enthu bout giving mi tips on how to go about getting a higher pay..

went back to his place and watch tv.. danny came.. i din know till he arrived.. baby prolly called mi over ba.. watever.. chatted.. and jus when we were bout to leave.. i had to spoil things again.. its jus a big mistake not to think through ur head before u speak.. it brings about a misunderstanding and lots of explaination which can be tiring.. and brings down my self confidence and esteem too.. its the first time ever im publishing that fact bout myself.. watever.. im jus too tired to keep trying so hard to make someone understand by explaining so much without getting much in return.. but its been always the case.. so shouldnt i be already comfortable wif this habit? haiz.. i need to slp.. i hope for a better tml..

im sorry baby.. i know this is prolly the hundredth time i apologise.. tell mi a better thing to say.. love you still..

nite.