still in dream land or not??

mondae..10/1

met dear in sch.. dear came to look for mi.. donated blood.. felt a pinch in my heart.. saw his smiley bandage..but felt proud of dear.. soon after he went off back to work.. later met dear again for lunch.. he had mac.. prosperity burger.. hee.. after sch went home.. change up den went out to meet dear again.. i was late.. made barley for dear.. brought his cookies over.. his mum was sick.. could see the worried look on his face.. i know dear's very worried for his ma.. though he din say a word but it shows.. glad tt all's fine..

tuesdae.. 11/1

went to sch for like an hr or so of lesson onli.. got to sch onli to find out i got my presentation part wrongly.. and was suppose to present in half hrs time.. din feel good.. like wtf.. lucky the com din work well.. which gives us more time to prepare.. went home.. later monica jie called den came my place and we talked and talked and talked.. went walk walk den ger go home le.. bad day in sch.. lucky got monica to talk talk awhile..din meet dear.. was on my mind all the while.. tot i could actually meet dear in sch or after sch to tell dear.. but since it was nothin impt.. i soon forgotten bout it.. heard rumours bout myself too.. was quite taken aback.. but i could do nothing.. pray hard i get through this semester..

wednesdae.. 12/1

caught a glimpse of dear jus before leavin sch.. first time see dear so busy in sch.. like rush here and there.. like see dear in action i v high leh.. dunno how to explain.. anyway.. went home.. later cal serene ger.. she came to look for mi after sch.. chatchat.. watch happie fish.. went out to hav our dinner.. mi ger and my bro we all had the same for dinner.. sent bro home den acc ger down.. chat till her dad came.. miss dear..

thursdae.. 13/1

dear msg mi early in the morning.. ask if i wan go out.. hee... so glad im finally meeting dear.. but no need ask i know dear sure tired de.. end up we still went for a movie.. as usual we went to ps.. hee.. caught meet the fockers.. nice show for a good laugh.. but dear was feeling cold in there.. sad i wasnt bigger in size cant give dear warmth.. felt dear shaking man.. another sign dear might b getting sick liaoz.. after movie dear acc mi back.. made dear angry on the way back.. dear din talk a word.. zipped up.. all the way from ps to bishan.. dun like .. mi cried.. i'd rather he shout scold man.. jus dun like him not talking to mi.. jus bring back some old feelings and memories.. dear even angry loh.. coz i cried.. but later he sayang sayang mi ahwile okie liaoz.. :) everytime some shit happen i always try not to say im sorry.. dunno if dear realise but im jus thinking if i keep sayin it.. it might jus lose its meaning.. so im still tryin hard.. =)

fridae.. 14/1

of all things my ring had to b broken.. isnt a complete circle anymore.. the stone in it dropped out too.. heart pain sia.. msg dear.. he still can laff at mi say how i wear ring till can break one.. worst still my pants the buckle dropped out too.. alamak.. haiz.. told dear i fat liaoz.. anyway.. went to work after sch loh.. thinking thru alot things.. lil did i know tt dear had waited for mi till i fang gong.. so sweet of dear loh.. i feel lah.. din expect ma.. can feel dear very tired de.. decided to take a bus home.. den in the bus he took out a box.. and its for mi!! a ring he bought rite after sch.. den he put it on for mi after i've settled down from a mild shock.. hee.. this time there was words engraved on the inside.. and half a heart on the outside.. later i put it on for him as well..the other half was on his side of the ring.. dear came up sit sit for awhile.. watch finish a show dear went home.. though so tired he dragged his feet out.. din wan to stay over.. oh well..

saturdae.. 15/1

went to work.. punched card jus in the nick of time.. wasnt late.. later received a msg from dear.. shan't type it out so to save some privacy for myself.. hee.. was the longest and the sweetest msg i ever received from dear these past two yrs plus.. but was also wonderin why the sudden change of attitiude.. nonetheless im jus enjoyin every moment now..

sundae.. 16/1

woke up first thing in the morning to see dear sitting on my bed.. felt so good.. still tot was my bro and i actually wanted to kick him off my bed!! feel so happie.. i could jus hug him first thing in the morning.. he actually brighten up my whole day.. he came to my place rite after his bike revision.. tt day.. time seem to fly.. i was caught smiling away to myself a few times by my frens.. anyway dear din go work today.. hope he rested well at home.. went home only cal dear.. coz i forgot to bring my hp out today.. coz went out wif dear ma.. din tot of msg dear loh.. so i acidentally left my phone at home loh.. den dear ask for the orders.. i took awhile den called him back.. later guess i wasnt too clear in asking him to confirm the orders again wif mi.. i pissed him off.. watever lah.. din hav a chance to tell dear i'll b working four days this coming week.. feel no gd.. i shouldnt hav.. but.. haiz..

mondae.. 17/1

wasnt late for 8am lec.. dear change stopover liaoz.. after lesson went to eat.. den went to lab finish my part on proposal.. den went to look for aini and fana.. later went to business canteen block.. hopin to meet dear.. later saw dear.. he came over to say hi.. guess he forgotten bout the cash wif mi.. jus bfore i left.. passed him the money in a hurry.. din write the total sum on the envelop.. wana tell him i put in some cash as well.. coz not all collected from my frens yet.. will be collecting from them when i go work on tuesday.. which is tml.. but din hav chance to tell dear.. dear ask mi faster liaoz..den i show face.. coz ger also cal mi already.. dear ask why.. probably din noe i dun like to rush.. still say dun make him flare up at mi in the canteen.. bad mood i guess.. but i also bad mood sia.. pms perhaps..