shagged..

tuesdae.. 18/1

here i am blogging again.. woke up ard 1 plus today.. could slp longer but i din.. afternoon tut was etut but cher wan us to go.. however, most of us din turn up.. so went to sch at 5pm.. met fana.. took tshirt.. went home..din go work.. dear din wan mi to work today.. tml gonna b a boring dae i guess..

later yiling ger called.. actually wan meet her de but knowing dear wan mi faster go home so i can rest at home faster finish my work, so end up aso din meet ger for dinner loh..jus nice she cal.. mi guai guai go home le..

ya mi actually tot today can meet dear.. coz say before liaoz.. that the next time dear go cut hair mi wan go cut together wif dear de.. but nvm liaoz.. reach home.. did my homework.. cut out job advertisements.. search for articles on project for international biz.. wrote my resume for tml submission.. all in half an hr.. but dun worry.. my work not any-o-how condition hor..but dunno the article on the topic anot onli.. actually wan ask dear help mi wif my work.. like doing work together.. but din wan disturb dear la.. den msg dear.. goin out to get dinner.. for myself and bro..good ger rite.. now home le.. dunno dear cut hair liaoz.. look like wat.. cant wait to see.. tml maybe.. maybe onli..

haiz.. these few days i feel dear keep hurtin mi wif his words.. think dear dunno.. think dear mus b thinkin i bad mood or fa pi qi but..haiz.. dear say.. why?! why!? why mus u sound like today die die also muz meet mi?!.... actually i dun hav tt idea at all.. if dear wan mi go home i can go home de.. budden dear say mi till i feel like im irritating him again.. but i decided not to feel tt way.. mayb dear tired.. watever.. dear reach home le.. call mi say cut hair le..cut too short.. dear aso ask mi i bad mood isit.. dear i onli scared i will irritate u more and more again these few days.. coz i jus keep feeling like shit.. really like shit.. inferiority's getting over mi.. jus keep anyhow thinking again.. like in the past.. i hate myself.. needa break.. gonna bath now..