pathetic adeline..

tuesdae.. 25/1

ahhchoo!! scewzmi!! ahhchoo!! ahh... woke up at eight today.. so lazy so tired.. din feel like moving an inch off my bed.. msg aini and fana.. slp back.. slp and wake slp and wake.. saw dear msg.. dear din go sch.. says his tired.. hope his jus really plain tired..

oh well.. another day jus like tt.. if not for the test im having i wouldnt care much..really.. can slp longer and maybe even later can go find dear awhile.. and besides promise joy liaoz.. asked dear if can i go swimmin wif joy.. dear sae if mi not tired den go loh.. set.. joy was overjoyed when she called mi later last nite to confirm.. she sae she tot i would not b able to go.. today reach sch.. she straight away ask mi.. 'got bring not?!?' haha silly ger..sure got bring swim wear la.. if not how to swim.. i promise liao sure keep de.. i still bring two set ah.. haa..

msg dear jus bfore leaving sch.. had project discussion le.. headed to the swimming complex.. dear i promise i swear i told u bfore.. that i had one.. i bought it together wif serene.. at tpy.. i din lie.. dear u say u feel i change le.. why leh?? i wanna noe.. jus bcoz i wana wear a bikini?? no man.. sad.. went to swim loh.. since u wan put down phone.. felt ur unhappiness in mi.. but why dear.. was thinkin of going off le.. but u might get more pissed.. tot if later meet u le can talk.. but din expect it.. din expect dear u go out le.. tot i tell u wait for mi at home ma?? din noe u were meeting anyone else.. tired den stay home.. why still go out.. den maybe.. u might be pissed wif mi.. jus wanna go out.. nvm.. but im jus very haiz.. joy offered to acc mi go walkwalk... but i declined.. not that i brought u ur cream or tt i wanna pass u the vcd that i finally managed to get hold of.. but its jus tt simple dear.. i wanna see u.. so badly.. really tot i can see u le.. but in the end u din wanna see mi.. u dunwan mi go down.. ask mi go home..

the more i think the more agitated i feel.. so irritating.. pathetic mi rite?? i know some ppl jus think im plain silly.. stewpid.. get a life man adeline!! jus thinking tml is wed.. im workin.. dear would probably be busy wif trainin.. where am i?? i've got a presentation on fri.. project schedule to meet.. and test on comin mon.. CRM.. xml prac test.. hand in cover letter.. and marketing research on wed.. and another international business presentation on fri.. quite busy dun u think so.. jus afraid ..... nvm.. i guess its alright.. dear will say its jus a matter of days only..okie.. nvm.. it doesnt matter.. but.. haix..

went home after swimmin.. bath kino.. kena scold.. silly dog.. anyhow let go.. feels better after i reach home.. played wif kino.. took pics.. wan show dear.. ya but dunno when.. feels so peace when home so empty.. i like it.. jus tt it'd b better wif da still ard.. i miss her.. haiz.. im gonna go cook some noodles now.. den go slp le.. im gonna slp slp slp.. haiz.... ahhhhhhhhhh!!! leave project till tml.. i cant concentrate.. cant focus.. cant at all..

dear...

can u hear mi..

missing u... take care okies..