..

its 1.45am.. jus put down the fone wif dear.. dear drop by my place jus now.. din noe he was serious when he said he was at my doorstep.. heard a knock on my door and he was there..

im sorry i greated u wif a cryin face dear.. but i cant help huggin u tight.. cant help the tears flowin.. i've missed u darlin.. so much.. i felt u were so far away even when im huggin u.. he jus came by to see mi for awhile.. but im contented..really..dear brought mi down for a spin.. wif jj's bike.. ard bishan onli.. i teared while on the bike.. jus feel like im suddenly missing out on so much bout dear.. better not let dear catch hold of this post.. sure think im thinkin too much again.. but tts how i feel.. dunno how to explain.. told dear tt we talked very little these few days.. BUT tts not wat i intend to say.. maybe im jus thinkin too much.. at least dear took the effort to make calls every single nite since the very beginning.. i noe..and i appreciate it all..n when i see dear onli.. i jus feel like he got loads stories to tell..

im angry??! no no.. not really.. wif myself maybe.. dun hav much trust in myself.. not tt i dun trust dear.. since dear gave mi tt ring.. our band.. my vday present.. i've not been seeing dear.. why like tt.. since dear gave mi tt longest sweetest msg..his promise.. i've not been hearing much from dear too.. !@#fuck la.. someone pls slap mi hard to wake mi up.. wats wrong wif mi.. dear busy wif sch and training.. cant u b more understanding?! but... argh... but den again i feel dear like dun wanna see mi for certain reasons.. i dunno i dunno..