hmm.. i've not been updating recently.. besides it doesnt matter much either.. things have not got better.. not gone worser.. dunno.. this jus a place i put stewpid stuff.. silly thoughts and throw it all out..

mondae..31/1

7 chapt on CRM..and an assignment to hand in.. din feel too good.. went to amk after sch to look for jingwen and aini.. jw rebonded her hair.. and though wif a short fringe she looks style and sweet.. pretty lil princess.. hee.. had a trim wif aini too.. soon after ger went home le.. so i went to catch some icecream wif jw chatchat.. while waiting for bus home.. dear called.. i made him angry .. dunno how.. i jus asked him where he was before i answered him on his question.. and tt jus instantly piss him off.. sad.. okie i was jus a lil over concern.. but it din hav to piss u off like tt dear.. im sorrie..

tuesdae..1/2

gonna hav test the next day.. studied a lil while waitin to meet up wif dear.. all thanx to irene and jw.. hee.. met up and went to ps after deciding theres no where else.. no movies we wanna watch.. so we went walkwalk.. talktalk.. though its jus walkin along the streets.. im jus so glad i met dear.. saw anvril too along the way..

later dear asked wats wif the sudden change in mood.. all that im thinkin.. wats rong?? why am i not sharing wif dear.. tats not the way to keep a good relationship..but i dun see u doin it too dear.. how am i suppose to say how i feel.. out of words to express.. jus feel dear always seems so eager to end the cal.. always seem so frustrating.. irritating whenever its wif mi over the phone..jus never seem to reply to my msges.. baby i feel neglected..

dear said he dunno.. dunno wats troubling him.. jus feel very fan.. foul mood.. tt u jus wanna b in a world of ur own.. dear u R in a world of ur own.. where am i in ur life?? im jus sad dear.. tt u'd rather be all alone and leave mi aside.. den lookin mi up to talk or chat.. wat am i to u.. i jus keep thinking even more.. baby i did not initiate a talk all becoz i did not wan any misunderstanding from u that u hav to be wif mi every day and and all.. thinkin tt u are tired and all.. i should be appreciative for ur calls every single nite.. but why do i feel the sudden change in ur tone nowadays?? there mus b a reason to everything rite?? i dunno.. dunno wat am i thinking wat am i feeling jus like the way u say u din know wats bothering u.. ...

went dear place.. had dinner and all..all was fine.. jus missed dear so much..anyway dear had much fun tryin to scare mi wif a fake spider.. he simply enjoys it.. reach home bath den try to read some more till i dozed off.. im tryin hard to fake it.. not think it..

wednesdae..2/2

had marketing research and xml test tt day.. together wif jw and aini, we went to s11 for lunch den to my place rest.. before going back to sch for xml test.. after sch.. went to orchard.. walkwalk.. shopped too.. bought a pair of jeans.. a black top.. a white bag.. and a white shoes!! i see i like i buy.. somthing very not like mi.. manage to get hold of dear's watch too.. before they close their tents.. aini had to go first.. so we went ahead to coffee club to hav our ice chocolate and icecream.. had fun chatting.. saw an old fren too.. LP.. hee..

thursdae..03/2

stayed back in sch till late to prepare for next day presentation and all...
enjoyed talking to jw and aini and fana.. if not for u ppl i would not be fine.. thanx for all the company.. i did let it out on fana 's shoulder.. couldnt help it.. ...

the lonely quiet corridors jus reminds mi of the time when i was still in SA.. din really do much at that time.. was always wishing dear would see mi participate in activities.. but the only time dear was there.. i was the lousiest..sad.. sad.. dear never got a chance to see any thing nice bout mi.. the other time i tot dear would go for the enrolment too.. long ago le.. but dear wasnt there too.. if i could turn back the time.. i would turn it back to my enrolment day.. its jus tt i will feel good knowing dear's ard mi when im at my happiest.. haiz.. oh well..

fridae..4/2

had my presentation.. woke up at 6.15am.. went to sch.. i was early.. least i wasnt the last to arrive in my group.. hee.. all went fine wif the presentation.. except tt it was quite fun seeing the different groups trying to answer the questions to the answers.. haha.. lance group seem to be shooting gerald's group like nobody's business.. but i hav to admit lance's good lah.. hee.. after tt took pics.. hee.. so fun.. cant wait for the whole class to wear formal together.. to see my good frens aini fana in formal.. den take pics together.. hee..

i made dear angry.. after the cal i felt it was my fault.. dear was jus eager to receive his present.. why did i make a fuss on when to give it to him?? it doesnt really matter at all.. i could have made the initiative to give dear a cal back.. i was..a lil busy.. but i know dear wasnt at all interested to listen to my excuses.. but .. nvm..

aniwae i passed dear his watch today.. saw the happie look on his face.. was glad dear liked it.. was even glad dear forgave mi bout last nite call...

after sch went to look for dear.. took the goodies.. den decided to take a cab down.. to orchard.. all wif aini's company.. glad ger was ard.. if not i would not manage at all.. dear once again seem to be in a rush.. oh well.. passed mi some cash to take a cab down to orchard.. den his off.. seemed so distracted.. went to orchard.. sent those stuff to sushi tei.. den to my mum.. den back to bishan .. to meet up with huifen jie.. den to mac for icecream again.. if not for aini .. hmm.. thanx ger.. so much..
its now 12.05.. and im wondering why no call from dear.. no reply too.. no answer my call too.. dear u so busy ah.. i tot its a dinner?? wat can u b busy wif?? not even a call.. was wondering if u've reached the place safely.. am thinking if u're on the way home now.. or did u go drinking.. or maybe u could really b busy.. pls take care..

*thanx sis.. im fine.. quite alright.. better le.. jus din manage to get hold of u.. catchup some time okie.. take good care of urself too..