sat.. blur

think i've not been writing since two weeks..

my papers are over.. last paper on fri.. last week.. it was the 15th of april.. dear came to sch to fetch mi.. he came from the bike shop.. we went to catch the movie..'the pacifier'.. it was good.. =) dear say no more horror movies wif him anymore le.. he dun like to watch.. and would also b a waste of money coz i watch also like din watch.. haha.. haiz.. den went to his place.. for dinner i think.. den we were in his room.. when i did the most shameful and terrible thing.. yep.. i sent a copy of an attachment of his things to myself.. all coz i want to hav a good look at it.. yes i simply jus wanna hav a good look at it.. in jus split seconds.. i had it done.. but i wasnt in the rite mind.. coz i din know wat i jus did.. i only hav thought bout wanting to hav a good look at it.. i jus wanna see it.. haiz.. i feel like him scoldin mi or wat.. i broke down.. i was so disgusted at myself.. yucks!! but dear..not only did he not scold mi or get angry.. he wiped off my tears.. and told mi..' dun worry ger.. i understand how u feel..'

couldnt believe my ears but.. that was it.. im so so sorry.. i jus couldnt help it.. i hope u really understand.. but im sorry too..

was bout to go home when dear ask if i wan tag along to meet jj.. den we were soon at the coffee shop.. later we went to dou dou feng.. went to visit a sort of a temple to give some offerings or rather receive some blessings.. holy place.. open all round the clock i guess.. my first time.. hee.. den went along changi road.. we went to changi road.. changi beach.. saw dear's fren on one of the highways.. this fren of his drivin a BMW converter.. hmm.. how i wish i had money.. lotsa money.. hee.. wish.. had the longest nite out wif dear.. another one day to remember..

rested on sat.. went to work on sundae..

mondae..18/4

met dear after his sch.. accompanied dear to HPB.. donated blood.. im so proud of dear.. really.. beneath his thick skin of chauvanist.. is his delicate skin of warmth and caring.. this is my dear..

haha thick-skinned.. dear's gonna scold mi if he see's this.. but i believe he understand my context.. hee..

tuesdae..19/4

went to work..

wednesdae..20/4

woke up to dear's cal.. says he's coming over.. i jus like this feeling.. went to bath.. get ready.. soon dear reach le.. we went back to his place to get some stuff before headin to suntec..

walk walk.. went to bata.. in search for a pair of 'love at first sight' slippers.. but no.. dun have.. sooff we went to the biggest bata store ard singapore i know so far.. also in tt area.. we went to search.. still no slippers.. but my dear manage to get a glimpse of the guy whu took my number.. whu almost coz mi to lose my dear.. haa.. abit scared and excited.. but i had dear wif mi.. no need scared.. hee..

i told dear we shall return to ps.. if the slippers we first saw is still there.. den its fated and we shall buy it.. and true enuff.. its there.. hee.. dear bought a bigger size.. =) shall start to save up for many more things..

dear drop mi at party world.. had k session wif f3 and vash and gerald.. gonna miss ma frens those whu are in diff path now.. irene sent to work at expo.. event planner.. haiz.. so far.. fana also.. dunno where she sent to.. hmm..

thursdae..21/4

met sis in the afternoon.. acc her for an interview.. end up i really literally accompany her for the interview.. and guess wat.. we both got selected.. it really got us so happie and excited.. all unplanned but we made it happen to work together again.. so happie i cant wait to let dear know.. but.. but but.. i din let dear know in the first place.. so like wat i expected.. pissed dear off again.. true to a certain extend.. i did not think carefully.. but its coz the workin hrs are short.. and pay is flexible.. and most importantly i'll be workin wif sis!! im not alone dear no need worry.. and the manager took good care of us and made sure we are together..

but makin mi chose.. i'd rather give up this second job and not lose dear in the end..sis also ask mi faster msg the manager and tell dear its all back to normal again.. but the extra income.. haha.. haiz.. im so sorry sis.. we'll hav chance again in the near future okies.. gonna miss all the fun workin together.. u and wenyu take care okies.. shall meet again soon..

fridae..22/4

went to work.. dear came to fetch mi.. =)
so hapie seein dear.. bet his tired.. his back in sch.. one week of sch jus over.. he should still be adjusting to books and lectures and tutorials.. after a whole sem of attachment.. now its my turn.. my challenge.. to wake up so darn early for the next eleven weeks.. haiz.. god bless mi..

sat..23/4
today.. went to work too.. jus came home only..

haiz.. haiz.. thinkin back.. its quite an alright week for mi.. i jus dun wann a tok bout the previous week.. its been a roller coaster ride for mi.. dear had been my motivation to study for exam.. but i jus cant piece my heart and mind on studies.. knowin dear and mi not alright.. had a real hard time the previous week.. so many many misunderstandings all together at once.. im jus glad things seem okie now.. i jus dun wan to spoil anything any further.. i love u dear.. we're gonna get thru all this shit together okies..

u take care dear..