fuckit..

its been awhile..

next sem schedule out le.. my class was amongst one chosen to go for attachment first..
i'll be on tep first.. aini will be in fypj.. while fana will go out to ipp first.. gonna miss her lots.. coz i wun get to see her.. mayb for the next three months.. wonder if ger will get her overseas attachment..

in the midst of examinations now.. last paper comin up on friday..
[>.<].. software engineering practices.. (down)
[>.<].. marketing research..on 15/4

stayed up late last week tue.. chatted while tryin to study.. chatted wif yiling.. had a long nice chat wif tt ger.. miss her too.. above all.. im glad things are already fine wif she and her dear.. and not forgettin irene.. helped mi a great deal..simply wif jus few words..wun forget wat u said..
'...and we wont die on you!
one day, youll have to do the same thing okay. so just enjoy the love youre getting from us...'
yea.. im so loved rite.. hee..

above all.. i know tt things are quite on the surface le.. we manage to talk alittle on an evening.. like never before.. dear jus say tt i hav to accept him the way he is loh.. ya.. like i told myself.. its mi tt hav to change.. not him.. met dear.. tt day.. went to the movies.. miss congeniality.. nice show.. it was suppose to be my treat.. but it turned out the other way round.. and i got a nice present from dear.. an mp3 player!! i told aini first.. and she too so happie and jealous for mi.. told yiling and we both agree on something..

dear's so sweet.. and he can be sweet when he wans.. ya but its not an everytime thing..

these few days dear has been feelin rather lethargic.. down.. restless.. tired.. but he kept assuring mi.. if he did not notice.. he was definitely not the same.. little more affectionate and all den before.. even came to fetch mi from work yesterday.. when he specially left work place earlier so he could find time to finish his report.. later still drop by at meridien.. and he bought mi a drink.. guess he remembered i felt like drinkin.. but not anymore.. coz its been too long i've waited.. but still i liked it.. hope we can drink more often together again.. but wif public transport and not on the bike later kkz.. walked mi home and tt was again very sweet of him.. coz im expected to be dropped by the stariway only.. and dear was already deadbeat..

thinkin back these few days.. all things turnin better.. and i hav to fuckin spoil it.. msg dear early in the mornin ard seven i think.. coz i was awaken by bro.. decided to msg dear.. before i slept back.. soon i was msg dear again.. tellin him im goin out..to meet a fren to get something.. dear called.. rite away.. so glad to even hear his voice.. all went well after dear specially made a trip down to bishan to run my errand for mi instead.. den he came over.. another special trip jus to return mi my stuff.. told mi to go downstairs immediately.. i went straight to wash up.. but bfore i could change.. i hear his bike honkin and my phone ringing.. went downstairs.. and it started.. after dear had his piece of mind.. he turned and went off.. called much much later.. to say he jus reach sch.. den he ask if im angry.. why should he ask if im angry if he thinks im the one at fault.. and why do i hav to answer him back like never before.. i was rude to dear.. maybe for the first time.. i totally wrecked it..

i dun wanna push my luck.. jus hope i din piss dear over the limit.. but.. haiz.. watever lah.. it jus spoilt my whole day..wan a time machine to turn back the clock.. haiz.. im sorry.. guess u're trainin away le.. read my mail yet?? dun be too late home.. take care on the road..

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