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ard last week the tue meet sis.. she came over ard eight.. glad we met up.. exchange stories.. as we chatted she called yasi over.. den they both stayed till late..

suddenly i got so busy wif my phone.. got so many calls coming in.. at the same time.. den dear's was like missing for awhile too.. but he finally called to say he's at cx's place.. haiz.. silly boy..

wednesdae..
dear had lion dance.. i went to look for sis and yasi.. went to carrefour and shop for stuff n walked the fountain of wealth.. i wished and hoped.. ... wished and hoped.. den later went over to meridien le.. stayed there till dear came over to fetch mi home.. din wan trouble dear either.. but dear called to say he comin to fetch mi.. reach my carpark.. dear say need meet a fren.. din wan ask much.. but forgot ask where he go at least.. so left dear a msg sayin i worry.. din like the feelin i get when he says he gonna meet his 'fren'.. went home bathed.. while preparing to go to bed.. dear called.. hee.. and soon he was at my doorstep.. slept over..

thursdae..
till the next morning.. seeing dear so tired.. i went off to sch without him.. hee.. my baby woke up only at 1230.. dear went home to rest.. though i kept remindin him got test next dae.. got his programmes.. and only finally decided to study at nite for his test.. as always..

fridae dear took his test den later went to suntec.. meet his boss..

the followin week.. dear went to work on mondae.. i met up wif dear after sch.. hee.. dear told mi to take my own sweet time.. so happie.. went walk walk.. dear bought another wallet.. sad i din get to buy it for him.. it was my intention to get him a new wallet first loh.. end up he was the one to buy it himself.. dots..

later after dear fang gong.. wei xiang..cx and yasi, sis and asri came over to join us for dinner.. den went home le..

tuesdae.. i went to catch the movie alot like love.. nice show.. enjoyed the movie.. i feel the cloest when we're in the cinema.. dear's mind can only be on the show.. and nothing else.. and the only time i can fully hundred percent relax.. and enjoy the show.. i jus love movies wif dear even at the same old place.. maybe we should try new place eh dear??

wednesdae.. met yasi for dinner.. den she came over my place..

yesterdae.. we went to catch another movie the ghost train.. aini warned it wasnt a good show.. but dear said since i wanna watch it so went ahead loh.. yea.. i was yawnin away in the theatre.. haiz.. dropped the phone on the way outside.. damn!! tamade.. later realised i couldnt hear a single shit le.. haiz.. tamade!! first caught a lousy show.. den i dropped dear's phone.. den i spent dear's money.. on the train concession.. i feel low.. haiz.. not my day.. not tt i dun like using his money.. but i feel very erm.. dunno lah.. den we went home.. and the worst thing happend..

dun wish to elaborate.. but im very affected.. and i feel bad.. and i guess it shall remain in me forever.. very ashamed.. wished the lights were out.. why the hell did i open the door.. fuckitz.. tamade.. haiz.. i dunno wat to say.. i jus wanna bring myself to hide forever.. dig a hole stay in there and never come out.. oh gawd.. wished i knew wat he saw.. help mi.. dear... haiz.. yesterdae was really a bad day..