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in the darkest times of my life.
i told myself to move on cause i have you.
in times when i have doubts and fears.
i clinged on tighter cause i tot there's still you.
you being my second chance.
my hope.
my support and comfort.
but.
the one that i put my whole trust and life in.
shows mi just how vulnerable trust can be
shows mi just how much can be seen through a person.
that im starting to fall apart cause of this one person.
is life worth giving one more chance?


am i to take your words for real and risk my trust being taken advantage of again?
its just this scary cause the person closest to you is the person hiding the most things from you.
and its just this scary to imagine you have lied for so long so well.
n whether to gimme a 100percent of u, its for mi to tell.
not for u to say.
but thanx for telling mi my importance to you and your sincerity in giving mi a 100percent.
afterall its wat i've been waiting for all this while.
its wat u owe mi its wat it should have been all along rite?
im jus wondering.. wat took u so long.. why only now..
i lived to learn that its just too much to trust one self and later get nothing in return.

u are jus going further further and further away from the man of my dreams.
from the one i thought i used to know.
i will not have any hopes expectations or surprises from u. i will jus live my days day by day.

all thanx to this meaningless word call trust..